So glad to hear that everything is going well. Having a goal really helps, though if you think you’ve got weird sleep patterns now, wait until you actually have a baby! I admire your courage and determination.
I’m really glad things seem to be going well for you. Physical activity is really good for you at this stage - sometimes it feels like you can’t drag yourself off the couch to do something, but if you have a task that actually needs to be accomplished, it’s surprising where you can find the energy - it helps to take your mind off things, I guess - and you can always have a little sleep afterwards. I always found boredom a good thing: if I had the energy to be bored, it meant I was on the right path.
It’s good that you have a supportive partner - I couldn’t have made it without the glorious Missus Case - and I’m glad that you’re able to focus on a goal: if you can muster the energy to be able to consider babies instead of merely existing in a vegetative haze from day to day, you’re on the right track. Just remember, if things do get tougher ahead, keep your eyes on that goal. More hugs.
Rob
Once you have completed withdrawal, you are going to know your own strength and no one can ever take that knowledge away from you. You can return to that strengtha and draw from it again and again.
And when your children are toddlers and you read to them about The Little Engine That Could, you will know that it’s a true story and they will believe you and learn strength themselves.
Thanks:) - and yeah, we’re expecting our sleep patterns to totally change! We’re looking forward to it:).
I keep looking forward to your posts - because you seem to understand exactly how I feel. It’s rare that someone understands exactly, and I really appreciate that. And my husband is pretty amazing - I married the best guy in the world. I love him more than anything - he’s good at pissing me off, he’s good at making me laugh, he’s good at making me want to throw things at him and he’s good at making me happier than anyone else. I love that, and I love him, and I know he’s going to make this amazing father to our children.
And I do feel so motivated - I’m finding myself more motivated than I’ve been in years. I’ll do something on the fly - like I’ll wash my face before bed, and notice that the sink has some shmutz in it, so I’ll clean the sink right before I go to bed, even though I’ve cleaned it two days before. I’m making sure clothes are put in the hamper, I’m wiping down the counters every time we fix a meal - which I know sounds absolutely stupid because who doesn’t do these things anyway?, but for three years, I was the worst housekeeper you would ever see. And now I feel like in order to beat this, I need to get better at the little things. I have the motivation to do it, and I’ll keep doing it. (Of course, my husband says it’s just the obsessive-compulsive tendencies I got from my sister coming out - he could be right:D).
I’m going to remember this:). That means a lot to me - I want to be that kind of parent. And I will be. Thanks:).
E.
Yeah, well I’m really glad to feel that I can help, in however small a way. I said in my first post that I admired your courage in starting this thread, and I meant it very sincerely: I’m still fighting My Drug Hell, and seem to be winning slowly - although there have been many setbacks along the way, and I’ve considered posting about it, but there’s still the residual guilt and shame about being a filthy addict that holds me back {that, and it’s a long, sometimes ugly, and probably boring story}. Maybe later, and I won’t dump all over your thread; I’m just pleased that you’re getting your “self” back - it’s a terrible thing to misplace.
I’m a recovering addict; my addiction is to prescription pain pills, specifically codeine. I’ve been straight for approximately seven years–it wasn’t always easy, but it gets better as time goes on. You aren’t alone in your fight; plenty of us have been through it and we’re all pulling for you. You can do it.
I figured I should post an update - I realized I haven’t done it in awhile.
Three weeks on the program, and still okay. He dropped down my dosage two weeks ago, and I think it was a little too much - I ended up sleeping all the time. So we stayed at that dosage last week and he told me I could take an extra 2 mg or so when I felt really wiped out.
We’ll drop the dosage slightly tomorrow, which should be okay. We’ll see how it goes.
I’ve seen the counselor twice so far, once more tomorrow. I really like him - we hit it off from the beginning. I feel comfortable talking about things with him, and I’m getting out a bunch of things that really have been bothering me for a very long time. It’s very positive. It’s weird - I’ve never been in therapy before, and I’m crying at the oddest things (and NOT crying at what I would expect to cry).
I’m still emotional, but I think it’s fading - unlike the last few weeks, where I would cry if my husband said ‘hello’ to me in the wrong tone. I’m starting to feel normal, though - like myself.
I’m liking it, honestly.
E.
Glad to hear you’re still on the road to recovery, and feeling better in the process. 
Wow…very courageous thread. My own personal addiction started about 3 years ago after a motorcycle accident and a subsequent surgery. Since that time, I have been on and off (mostly on) perscription opiates. Not the opiate lites, the hard core ones. I have kicked every single way possible; cold turkey, titration, everything. I have been through withdrawls so severe that I wanted to die. Throughout all of this I have held a job and parented 2 boys. I would be a liar if I said that it didn’t affect both of those aspects of my life. I wish all going through this good luck, I have been there. Night sweats, restlesness, dizzy-head, the shocks, diarrhea, and lack of sexual desire (gasp!). I am currently using daily and wish to stop in the near future, this thread is great inspiration for me. I will continue to read this and hope to be posting good personal news in the future. To anyone wanting to discuss or offer advice my email is turbokneegro at yahoo. Thanks to all for being brave enough to share.
Elza B,
I was just thinking of you yesterday and was about to email you to see how you’re doing. I’m glad you like your counselor. That helps immensely.
If I can offer any advice, I think one of the most important things to do is not replace one addiction with another. I’m still clean of drugs, but I’m still struggling with either eating or having a couple of glasses of wine about 4-5 days per week. I know it’s unhealthy, but I’m still struggling. My husband is well aware of it and watches me closely. I just started taking St. John’s Wort and 5-HTP, so we’ll see if that works. I’m not up to therapy at this point.
It’s just the opposite for me, much to my husband’s pleasure. [TMI warning]I was very horny and orgasm temporarily relieved some of the jitters, too.[TMI over]
Like you, I became addicted due to severe pain. For some reason, my family takes comfort in the knowledge that I’m not a crackhead, at least. :rolleyes: Whatever gets them through, I guess.