I thought really hard about posting to this thread or not…but here goes anyway.
When I became pregnant with Hallboy, Hallboy’s father freaked out. Apparently I was okay enough to have sex with, but he certainly did not want me in his life forever, especially if that forever was connected to a child. He made it very, VERY clear that he did not want a child, and certainly did not want a child with me. Throughout the beginning part (first four months) of my pregancy, he never let up attempting to talk me into an abortion. (Just for the record, I never once considered abortion.) When that didn’t work, he switched tactics. He began telling me how innocent babies were, and how yeah, he’d pay for support, but he’d also fight me for partial custody. At the very least, he’d have the baby every other weekend, and oh, how helpless those babies are, and how they can’t fight back and how weak they are, and how they can suddenly die in the most unexpected of ways. My best friend, thinking I was in a hormonal state of insanity, talked to the father, who told her the same thing he’d told me. Granted he never came right out and said, “Hey, I’ll kill the kid”, however, he didn’t need to. I broke off all contact and never looked back.
Yeah, he got what he wanted (not to have a kid financially, physically and emotionally in his life), but at what costs? I never sued for child support, and never looked back. However, my son doesn’t have a father, which to me (had his father not been psycho) would have been a better bet than getting a check each month.
I somehow think there’s a special place in hell for someone who deserts his or her kids. (The father of HallGirls did basically the same thing in his desertion, although he managed to form an unbalanced relationship with them first, and THEN walk out of their lives, leaving me to answer the “why doesn’t daddy love me?” questions. Try explaining to a six year old that her daddy does still love her, but he’s “busy” or some other BS, without telling her that her father is a SOB who shirks his responsibilities.)
Kids are not disposible. You have the impact to be the best thing in someone’s life, or the screw them up forever. It’s you decision, and it goes far beyond a monthly check.
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