I wrote this in my LiveJournal, and I was going to start a new thread until I found this one, which is the exact same idea and even some of the same OP.
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I always seem to kind-of line up and sort out my religious feelings around (and just before) Easter – that’s probably because my church has such excellent, evocative Maundy Thursday/Good Friday services. The Holy Week vibe is a strong one with me. Besides, spring is a good season for figuring things out.
This year, I got caught up a lot in the logical side of Christianity. I’ve run into a lot of skeptical atheists/agnostics who recognize me as intelligent(ish) and reasonable(ish) and ask me to explain the non-Fred Phelps side of our religion. I’ve run into a lot of people who, thanks to Neo-Pharisees of his ilk, have written off Christianity as a hateful, judgemental, self-righteous cult. And for a while, I started to buy into that mentality, and sort of distance myself from Christianity, and say, “well, I’m spiritual but not really religious,” and if anyone asked, say, “I was raised Presbyterian, but…well, you know.”
But I believe that there’s a very simple, very good message at the heart of it. God so loved the world that he sent his only son to suffer and die to save us. Jesus Christ so loved the world that he suffered and died on the cross to save us. Love, love, love, love your neighbor as yourself, love God with all your heart and soul, it’s all about love. Everything else is minutiae. It’s there, and some of it helps you be a better person and some of it is just confusing, but it’s so unimportant, relative to The Big Message: Love.
The other thing I realized (maybe “internalized” would be a better word, it’s nothing I didn’t already know with my head) is that the Bible is an anthology. It’s called Scripture, yes, but nowhere in Christian dogma do we have a text which is the actual word of God. At least, I’m pretty sure the Ten Commandments are a transcription, although my Old Testament theology is shakier than my New Testament. The point being that not every book in the Bible is created equal, and context is important. Like, a lot of the Old Testament genealogies/travelogues are more of a cultural history of the Jews than they are anything else. The whole Bible is not a Big Book Of What To Do, it’s stories and letters that are sometimes only tangentally related, that are interesting to read as a look at early Judaism and early Christianity finding footholds in culture and growing as young religions, but the important thing to remember is that it’s not all prescriptive.
So what I’m feeling about Christianity now and religion in general: God’s message, first and foremost, is love. He loves us, and he wants us to love him, and love each other. God is all about the big hippie commune. God is also all about not just loving passively, but doing something with it – like voting to pass legislation that raises the minimum wage, and lobbying to change unjust laws, and giving money to genuine charities. God wants you to be the hand that helps your neighbor up.
And more personally, God is happy when you’re happy. Remember on Arrested Development last week, when George Michael’s creepy fundamentalist girlfriend Ann was getting so excited about God’s love filling her at a certain pivotal moment in their relationship? God is all over that. God LOVES it when you’re happy. God goes NUTS over you rocking that solo in jazz combo, and jumping into a river in August with all your clothes on, and geeking out over the Return of the King midnight opening, and reading “Romeo and Juliet” aloud to yourself because Queen Mab is too delicious to let lie on the page, and trying on a new dress that fits perfectly, and jumping up and down in the rain, and yes, really good sex. In fact, dare I say it? Especially really good sex. God is CRAZY about that action. Also, he has a good sense of humor, but to me, that’s so obvious as to almost be not worth mentioning.
And then there’s music, because I just can’t listen to Boccherini’s “La Musica Notturna” and not believe in a higher power that inspired something so thoroughly sublime.