I’ll repeat my availability if you just want an ear for awhile. This particular situation isn’t tearing me apart but I’ve been torn apart many prior times in my life. And we need to be there for each other. PM me if you want. I’ll reply with active phone and/or chat/email etc contact info.
I Actually got so bored, I wondered if there exists such a thing as Lego porn
I’m doing okay except when I talk to my mother on the phone. She’s the one causing me stress.
I retired on January 10. (Ok, good news there - I worked in Healthcare IT and my ex-coworkers are essential and understandably frightened at having to go to work.) My plan at the time was to take it easy for the rest of the winter, adjusting to the new reality and then, come spring, I’d start living my best life! I had so many plans. Then my mother died on Feb. 12. I was consumed with trying to deal with all that comes with that when the pandemic arrived. So, selfishly, I’m really sad that things are so fucked up and everything I hoped retirement would be can’t and won’t exist for the foreseeable future. And settling my mother’s affairs is not possible right now and I’m trying hard not to stress about that.
I live alone with my two cats. I’m 65 so I’m at risk. I’ve only been out in public twice in the last three weeks. I worry about getting sick even though I don’t have any major problems. I talk to friends on Facebook or on the phone. I watch some TV. I spend way too much time online keeping up with news. I have tons of books that I had saved up for retirement but I can’t read right now. It’s just not distracting enough at this point. I do ok until late at night when I’m getting ready for bed and it is really quiet. It feels like I’m the only person in the world. And I feel scared. I take Melatonin to sleep but some nights I still can’t turn off my brain and am awake for hours. During the day it’s somehow easier to feel that everything will be alright. The world looks so normal out the window. It’s those wee small hours that are the worse.
The TV has been on for 11 days straight 24/7. I am losing my mind. No exaggeration here.
After a very rough 5 years that nearly cost me my life, I have been kicking the shit out of bipolar disorder every day since for the past 17 years but it requires steadfast, monk-like vigilance to stay on top of. You can never, ever slip up or it’s your ass in the garbage disposal (not literally, luckily I’ve never had a delusion that pushed me in that direction :D). So from that perspective, this is just another day at the office and I’m well equipped to deal with yet another catastrophe. But from the perspective that I already have to manage a motherfucker of a disease that affords me absolutely zero breaks under any circumstances, this is just piling more shit on top of shit. But then, thats just life in general and you get used to that as well. All in all, I’m good. Spring is here and I have 100’s of hours to spend in my garden, which was built on the heels of social isolation to begin with. That will be 100’s of hours I’m not reading freakout material on the internet. Double win.
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Having lived through many years of gonna-kill-myself-on-Monday-to-make-it-through-the-weekend-depression…this is a cake walk. And as an introverted homebody, being homebound is actually my ideal habitat.
My age has been taking a toll so risks of hospitalization for myself and family is very worrisome. Other than that, my mood is surprisingly good since the biggest threat is outside my head instead of inside it. Odd how that works.
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You have my sympathy. Your plight is similar to a good friend of mine. She is 50, is desperately poor, works part time at a drugstore, and her car is old and falling apart. She has no family, a handful of friends, and her life is confined to hoping to get to work, wondering what to buy at the grocery with limited funds, and hoping to get back home. She has some mental or emotional problems. No hobbies. Doesn’t read. Doesn’t like tv. Can’t BEAR to be alone. Sits in her apartment and smokes and calls people over and over, all yapping and anxious. She and I have always been there for each other but I am self-isolating at home. She understands. I have resources, I am an introvert and can amuse myself or just deal with being alone, 24/7. She has always been desperately terrified of being alone because she knows she’s going to turn into one of those sad old women just deteriorating in health, waiting to die, alone. So she tells me, and I can’t disagree. She is, however, very religious and now tells me she has faith in The Lord. The Lord is going to keep her car going, or bring a man into her life, or reunite her with her estranged family, or bring a nice new neighbor to her apartment building. Pray pray pray. She was terrified of going to work and dealing with the disease-ridden public, and now she says The Lord is going to protect her. (Sometimes I think it would be a mercy if The Lord got off his ass and carried her home to heaven - she says her mother is there waiting for her.). It’s a very hard time for some, I know, and my heart aches for them. I’ve always been super-introverted. A phone call a day is fine with me for socializing at the best of times, I have to make myself go out and do things. But my friend, it is agony for her to be alone…I’m surprised at how empty and sad a lot of people’s lives are. It’s not like tv and movies, with fun people and romance and hordes of jolly friends all supporting each other. It all dissipates over the years for so many. I had 8 aunts and uncles, 20 cousins, two brothers, and all are dead, in nursing homes, moved thousands of miles away. Friends move, travel, got their own shit going on and too busy to do more than chat now and then. I dunno.
Rule 34. There’s no escaping it.
Well… is there?
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And it likely hurts your feet like hell.
Depressed for a wide range of reasons I can pinpoint
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I’m worried about my elderly parents, aunts and uncles.
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I’ve had a mild cough for 3 weeks (I think its just bronchitis from a regular cold I got nearly a month ago, not COVID as COVID was less common a month ago). So even though my parents, aunts and uncles need supplies I’m not willing to bring them supplies until my cough goes away and has been gone for several days.
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The economic impacts terrify me. I graduated college around the 2008 recession, and its taken me years to make up lost ground. I’m worried it’ll be another decade of struggling. Even in good times, the economy sucked for tons of people. Now its going to be higher unemployment, lower wages, fewer benefits, etc. for years.
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The massive debts to fix the virus (I’m guessing deficits of 4 trillion or so this year) mean that pretty much no new government programs are possible even if democrats win the congress and white house. I was looking forward to some new plans under Biden to expand health care, education, infrastructure, green energy, etc. If anything we may see cut backs on these needed programs as a form of austerity.
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Being stuck at home is really starting to make me stir crazy.
My depression is usually under control, but it came back the last few days.
Go on porn hub and search for lego porn.
Not doing great, but thanks for asking! I have aspergers, depression and OCD tendencies, which are causing me to read everything i can find about covid, various government responses to it, daily stats, possible long term outcomes etc. I know it’s doing me no good, but have been unable to refocus on anything for 2-3 weeks. And my motivation for anything other than reading is minimal.
I’m trying to help my elderly neighbours to protect themselves, and am doing their shopping. Being out where conversation is possible (shops etc) is something i find difficult at the best of times, so doing it for 3 of us is quite a struggle, and my only transport is a bicycle! Yet the elderly lady told me yesterday, after just a week of quarantine, she got bored and went for a look in the shop. :smack:
Having a really hard time getting my head around the stupidity being shown by numerous folk, from leaders to the elderly and at risk. And struggling to remain polite and helpful, when confronted with that stupidity. (I’m trying to resist the temptation to say it like it is, in my usual blunt and unkind fashion, something that has had disastrous consequences for me throughout my life, but now, I feel really needs to be said, yet don’t know how to say it!)
So am having a real personal struggle, on top of the anger that those in charge in many places have been so very slow to act, the sadness that so many elderly and hermit types, have no one helping them, and the sadness for every family that is unable to be with loved ones who are catching the virus, and dying alone.
I happened to get an LED growlight and an aquarium early this year, so planting veggies for the balcony and looking after the fish provide momentary distractions. I have tried, and will continue to try a news blackout hour (yes, hour…a whole day is not yet feasible 
Also, getting out on the bike helps reset my mind a bit, though it’s looking like the UK lockdown could be tightened soon, so that may not be possible by next weekend.
I have it so much better than many, but my heart is aching for all those people, and it’s very overwhelming.
Venting helps too, thank you, and good luck to everyone this is affecting.
I am doing pretty well. I got laid off from my job nine days ago, but I don’t miss it at all. I will miss the paychecks once they run out (after my paid time off is paid out over the next two pay periods), but I have money in the bank and I’ll qualify for unemployment. I have been at home with AHunter3 for nine days, with only an outing to an arboretum and an outing to the beach (socially distancing from everyone else) and so far it feels less depressing than the bunch of years when I was unemployed and living alone. We are here in the hot zone of COVID-19 and we have at least one friend who is in the ICU fighting the virus. We are worried about him and a bit worried about what the world is going to look like when this is all over, but we are managing to take care of each other and entertain ourselves. I do notice I get a bit more upset with idiots who are WRONG on Facebook, but I’ve learned to recognize when it’s time to stop looking at the internet. I miss going to concerts and movies in theaters and planning dinner parties, but I have faith that those will be possible again in the future. So, so far, so good.