This is my first thread. Hopefully this all makes sense. I just wanted to hear people’s opinions. Here we go:
I’m a 20 year old female who was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. My depression kind of is a “tag-along” of my anxiety. I’m depressed because I have anxiety. Here is a little background as to why I have this. My sister, Natalie, got sick my sophomore year of high school. It was extremely unexpected and she was given a 50% survival. She pulled through. Ever since then I have been extremely fearful of death. I was (and still am) scared of a lot. I hate the dark, driving long distances, hospitals, being alone, etc. This past January I lost my grandfather unexpectedly. I actually was the only one there when he died. I feel like I could have done something, but all I could do was call 911. He died from a heart failure. I believe in God and I’m a strong believer in Christ, but I have a hard time trusting that there really is a Heaven. I’m so scared to die and for anyone I love to die. I hate watching the news or scary shows/movies because I start thinking it could happen to me. I know my fiance and my family have a hard time understanding, but especially friends. I have to cancel a lot of things because I feel bad or don’t want to drive. My first year of college, I had to withdraw because I started having panic attacks and couldn’t drive. I’ve been to psychologists and take medicine, but I still can’t overcome this. I pray all the time.
Does anyone else deal with this? I get a tight chest, dizzy, feel faint, and just freeze up basically. I usually start feeling bad, like headache or pain and think I’m going to die. I need to know other people deal with this and have overcome it. Please help!!