I don’t know why, but I feel like this should be announced somewhere to someone. Here and you seem like excellent options to fill those blanks.
The situation is this: Lately, I’ve been using drugs for recreation/experimentation and I think I’ve been doing so too much. There haven’t been any consequences, my grades haven’t slipped (quite the contrary, I recieved two academic awards recently), nobody around me has noticed, YET. I got around this in my mind for a while using the logic that since I never used any particular substance or substances regularly, I couldn’t have a problem with any of them. I don’t think I have a problem, but I don’t know that, and in order to continue on with my daily life I need to KNOW that I don’t have a drug problem.
I’m not going clean and sober permanently by any means, but I am going clean and sober for at least a while. At an absolute minimum I will not abuse any kind of drug until the end of the school year, 2.5 weeks away. I’m quitting absolute cold turkey for at the very least that long. Depending on how much I want to do something, the period will lengthen. If at one week I’m going nuts (not likely, mind you) then this is going to be a very long time indeed. If I never even think about violating my pact with myself (also not likely), this will last 2.5 weeks.
We’ll find out soon if I need support in doing this, or if I can easily decide not to touch anything when I need to and stop worrying about this for a while. I seriously can’t imagine that I wll violate the 2.5 clean weeks ruling, but the question is “How bad will I want to?”. We’ll see.