I’m puting this in the pit, because I think my actions were pitworthy.
When I was four (I’m 36 now), I had a babysitter who was 13 years old. I have no idea why i did it, but I threatened her with a butcher knife. She kicked me in the shin, and I cried, then her father came over to make sure she was safe. My parents made me apologize to her afterwards.
I think about it from time to time. I’ve had people treat me pretty cruelly in my life, and I know that kind of stuff sticks in your head for a long time. I feel I may have messed up her life in some kind of way.
I’m thinking about hiring a private investigator to track her down so I can apologize to her. But maybe she doesn’t even remember the whole thing? I don’t know what the right course of action is.
So, anyway, tell me. What should I do? Should I leave it alone, or should I try to make amends?