Everyday, around 7:00pm we let out 3 cats outside for an hour or so. They always come home on time.
Yesterday, they were complaining early, so my husband let the girls out. Maxx wasn’t around. a few minutes later, he wandered down the stairs. I opened the door for him, and he hesitated. He knew it wasn’t time yet. Then he went.
We were eating dinner about 20 minutes later, when the phone rang. It was our next door neighbor. Panic in her voice, she said a black and white cat had been hit by a car.
I rushed out to find my sweet Maxx lying behind the neighbor’s car, bleeding from his mouth. He was still breathing, but his eyes were dialated.
I gently picked him up. He was limp.
My husband brought a towel to keep him warm, and we took off for the vet. It was 7:30pm by then. I wasn’t sure if our vet was stilll open, but I knew that someone was there all the time.
We both cried all the way to the vet.
About half way there I knew he was gone. but we went on.
They were closed, but a few employees were still in the parking lot. They went back in to see if the night person could help us.
She came out saying no, there was no vet available. Then she looked at Maxx and said “He’s gone. Unless you want to bury him at home I can take him.” I handed him in the towel. I couldn’t watch her carry him inside.
I got back into the truck, crying even harder. My husband, saying “Damn, Damn, Damn” all the way home.
We talked a bit when we got home, but we both seemed to need time alone with our grief. I went to bed.
I only slept for an hour. I awoke with a start, thinking I’d had a terrible dream. No dream.
I went down to see my husband. He was writing. That’s how he copes.
I went back up and cleaned up the kitchen. Then I went back to bed.
Again, I slept just an hour or so, then went down to check on hubby.
We repeated this pattern through the night. At 8:00am I was able to talk him into coming to bed. We slept until noon, because I’d set the alarm at his insistance.
He is angry… at me. I know its not me, but it makes me feel so alone in my grief.
He’s now asleep on the couch. I hope sleep will help him heal a little.
I’ going to clean. It will take my mind off Maxx.
I miss him so much.
I am so sorry to hear about your cat. I would be incosolable and unable to perform any meaningful work, if this was my pet. Cats are truly wonderful animals. I know that your sweet cat was loved and treated well during his life. You are a strong person, I can tell. I wish you all the best, warm and healing hugs. Take care, ok? No one is to blame.
I’m sorry 
We love them for the years we have them and they’re like family.
He’ll live in your dreams. Promise.
I am so deeply sorry about your loss. Nothing I can say can lessen the pain you’re feeling-- just know you have my heartfelt condolences.
Thank you, everyone. I didn’t expect much in the way of response. I just needed to write it.
My husband and I have always supported each other in any adversity, but this seems to be different. Even though he says he doesn’t blame me, He’s been angry at me all day today. He won’t talk about Maxx at all.
He’s alseep already, maybe I should do the same.
Once again Thank you.
I’m so sorry. We lost one of our cats the same way and I know how terrible it is. I hope never to go through it ever again and I’m so sorry that it’s happened to you.
I am so very very sorry. And I hope mr picunurse sees what he’s doing soon. He’s angry; and you just happen to be available. Please know that you are not alone in your grief.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I’m so sorry your sweet kitty passed away. I’m sure he had a happy life and he will always live on in your memories of him.
I’m so sorry about Maxx. At least I knew Trouble was sick and the end was near. I had some time to sort of prepare.
Oh, hon.
I’m so sorry.
Your husband is probably like mine…it seems like he’s mad at you, but really he just isn’t dealing with his grief well.
Was Maxx his favorite kitty?
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I’m so sorry. We had to put our cat to sleep in 2001, and I still think about him and miss him every single day. It starts to hurt less and less with every passing day, if that’s any consolation. I’ve had a cat-shaped hole in my heart ever since, though. You should be sure to give your other two cats extra treats and hugs and love, and it might help you all through it.
hugs picunurse very hard
Well, you know there’s just not a damn thing I can say to make you feel better or I’d say it. The best thing to remember is that Maxx knew that you loved him. Maybe we could all take some extra time today to love on our current kitties, and recall happy times with kitties we have lost. My deepest sympathy, picunurse.
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I am so incredibly sorry.
Once again, thank you all. Hubby has apologized for being a jerk yesterday. He’s out taking a drive right now. He’ll probably come home with flowers.
The other kitties keep going to the window and calling. They don’t understand. Last night Cassy woke me up standing on my chest meowing as loud as she could, (she’s our “Lassie” cat) I got up with her as she ran to the living room and jumped to the window sill. I looked out and the neighbor’s black & white kitten was in the yard. He does look a little like Maxx, but he’s only about 6 months old. I know she knew it wasn’t Maxx. I guess she’s just as upset as we are.
I know I’ll feel better soon, but not yet.
Thank each of you for the support. I couldn’t ask for a better group of friends.
Mary
I am so sorry to hear about Maxx, and I hope you, your husband, and your other cats are feeling better soon. Os there something you can do as a memorial? Maybe plant a tree or bush or make a donation to an animal charity? Doing that helped me. A library in NC has a book on cat care dedicated to Stephanie Mylastname. They didn’t have to know she was a cat.
I’m sorry for your loss. My own Timmy the Cat only has a few months left and I’m grateful that I have the opportunity to say goodbye.
Let yourself grieve. Let your husband grieve. But remember to celebrate the life of the little feller too.
So sorry.
I never lost one that suddenly but it’s hard I know. It takes time but it gets better.
I am so sorry for your loss. It’s hard to lose a pet; it’s doubly or triply hard to lose one suddenly.
Thinking of you, and hoping for the best…