I’m crying and I can’t stop myself.
Last year it was triggered by a teddy bear my boyfriend had given me. This year it was saying good-bye to my best friend. I had to pull over on the drive home to pull myself together. That was a half hour ago and the tears are still flowing.
I don’t get it. I cried at every graduation function last year, despite hating the school and the people in it, and being insanely glad to get out. Yet I didn’t cry last April when I was leaving uni, despite having more and better friends there, some who aren’t coming back and whom I will miss dearly. I’m starting to think being home just makes me more emotionally strung out. But whatever the reason, I just wish I could stop. I still have packing to do.
And the worst part–crying agravates my sinuses. I now have a huge headache that hurts more everytime I move my head.