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Good morning, all! I’m typing at you from an alpaca farm in North Jersey (near the NY state line, about ~60 miles west of NYC), where I’ve been since Friday to visit an aunt who is in hospice — and her kids/my cousins, plus random other family in the area. I go home today, and will be stopping on the way south to meet one of said random family members for lunch: I have about an hour to kill, so I figured I’d jump in at the tail end of this week’s thread. 
I’ve skimmed everything since my last post, but quoting/replying on my iPad is a PITA so I’ll just say one thing: BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY, METAL MOUSE! 
The drive up here on Friday was mostly fine: heavier traffic than I expected, and some construction/lane closures on I-95 in northern Maryland resulted in about 30 minutes of delays, but all in all it could have been much worse. And the cloudy-and-cool-but-dry weather was actually perfect for driving. I stopped in my mom’s hometown on the way up — about an hour south of here — to visit her best friend, and got to the farm at around 7pm. Then I went to my cousin’s for a late dinner, and she and her husband and their 20-year-old son and I wound up sitting around and talking until 2am (occasionally joined by their 14-year-old daughter). That’s pretty late for me these days! 
The cottage I’m staying in is pretty cool. It’s right at the top of the driveway, separated from the first main farm field by a large empty field. In addition to alpacas, there are yaks, turkeys, goats, and I think some rabbits: I can see a couple of yaks from the house, but have to walk down the driveway to see the others. The cottage is neither too close to nor too far from the animals. And the place itself is nice: 2 stories, with good-sized living and dining rooms on the first floor plus a decent-sized kitchen, and upstairs are two bedrooms and one bathroom. The master bedroom is the length of the house, so quite big, and the other bedroom is a good size, as well. I actually chose to stay in the second bedroom, because it has a big desk (which is where I’m sitting right now). Nothing modern or fancy, but a very comfy place; it is definitely on my list as an option for future visits.
I’m up here for my mom’s side of the family, but my dad’s youngest brother has a place about an hour north of here and yesterday I drove across the state line to meet him and his wife for lunch. I drove across two state lines, actually, and crossed the Delaware River twice: once from NJ into PA, then from PA into NY. I’ve been in six states during this trip: VA, MD, DE, NJ, PA, and NY.
Late afternoon I finally went to the facility where my 84-year-old aunt is in hospice, and got to spent a couple of hours with her before her kids/my cousins arrived. It was hard to see her like that. Moments of lucidity — she knew who I was — but the dementia was evident, and sometimes she would hallucinate. She also did not move at all; she’s basically bedridden (and catheterized). She hasn’t really been eating, but while I was there she ate almost half of a small tuna sandwich. That was all she had all day, though. The not eating is what we think will finally do her in; there are orders for her to not be force-fed, intubated, etc. She isn’t even to be hospitalized without the family being consulted. Visiting hours ended at 8pm, and afterwards one of my cousins (the one whose house I’d gone to Friday night) and I went to a nearby Applebee’s for dinner and to talk for a while just the two of us. The place closed at 1am, and we were there until 12:45am.
This cousin is only a year younger than me and we’re the only girls on that side (the other 3 are boys), and she’s always been like a sister to me even though we only saw each other once or twice a year while growing up (because they lived in NJ and we lived in MD). In two months I’ll be back up here to take her to a Friday night concert, and afterwards we’ll go to the shore for a couple of nights.
Anyway, no one can guess how long my aunt has — she might be just like this in two months, or she might not make it through May — so I’m glad I came up here and was able to tell her that I love her. I’m ready to go home, though. And I miss my doggy.
This week is going to be pretty awful: tomorrow I will be firing the direct report who has been on a performance improvement plan (PIP) for the last month. It’s the culmination of years of poor performance…and, yeah, this probably should have happened a while ago. The decision was made last week (which was the final week of the PIP), after several conversations with/quick agreement from both HR and my boss, and corporate approved the termination request on Friday morning. The notification conversation is scheduled for 10am (she thinks it’s just our regular weekly tagup; she’ll know as soon as I say that HR is going to join our call). I’ve had to notify employees that they were being laid off, but I’ve never fired anyone before. It is going to suck (for all involved: this is going to be personally and professionally devastating to my employee, and my heart is already breaking for her). And logistically I’m going to have a ton of stuff to do as soon as the notification is done: telling the people she works with regularly, getting access to the system she uses for our invoices and trying to make sure nothing in progress falls through the cracks, etc. What she does is already documented (thank goodness), but I don’t know exactly how she does a few of the steps…I’ll figure it out, and I’ll have help, but it could be a bumpy week or so.
Time to throw the last few things in my suitcase, load up the car, and head south to meet that random family member (one of my mom’s cousins) for lunch. I hope everyone has a good Sunday…catch you in the new thread as soon as I’m able!