I hope that this is the right forum for this question. If not, I’m sure it will be moved soon enough to Great Debates…
Through most of my life, I contented myself saying I was an agnostic. I’m a pretty intelligent person (not bragging, I’m just lucky that dad is a genius and I got some genes), and I approached the world in the logical way that dad did.
Now, I’m 31 years old now. I have found a woman who makes me feel more alive than I have ever felt before. This may sound odd, but upon meeting her, and falling in love with her, for the first time in my life I felt the presence and decided in my heart that there was a God. However, my mom always had a distrust of any organized religion, and that stayed with me even after her death.
(Note: Dad was raised Catholic but became a strong agnostic in college, mom was Jewish.)
No doubt you all know about the LBMB. Even though I was searching for a God I was finally starting to slowly believe in, I was still the posterboy for Secular Humanist reasoning there. As far as social and political issues, I still align myself with that line of thought, and doubt that will change anytime soon.
In going to the board, I started to learn by watching. These people - especially the most fundamentalist of them - were scared stiff. Oh, it manifested itself with bluster and condemnation at anything which even hinted of being against Scripture, but it was obvious.
At this point, I started looking at other religions - the Judaism of my mother’s side (I am technically Jewish and always will be so) and even purchased an English translation of the Koran.
As much as I looked and saw the simulariities that all three religions preached, I also saw the hate in their name throughout history, the animosity between not only the different faiths, but between denominations as well. And I started thinking about how this would work into my own ideas of what it’s all about.
It occured to me that if Christians were correct, Jews - God’s “Chosen People,” would go to Hell for the simple reason that they worshiped Him not through Jesus, which makes no sense. Why would a just, fair God condemn His people to Hell? Simply for believing that He was real and that one day, the real messiah would come?
Whereas the Jews believe the Christians are misguided, and question their relationship with their G-d. I went to a Jewish chat room, and with vitriol, they commented about how the X-ians all worship Zeus and how they turned their back on G-d.
Then, I look at the Koran, and the very first words in it are, “This Book is not to be doubted.” I don’t know that much about Islam, but that is pretty clear right there.
So, who was right? How would I choose?
Last week, I had an epiphany. I was driving home from work, and out National Public Radio station came on. It was airing an interview with Karen Armstrong, a former nun who has gone on to write a slew of books on all of the “Big Three” religions. She was promoting her new book The Battle For God.
While she said some really fascinating things about fundamentalism and how all fundie movements are similar, and I enjoyed her discussions about the battle between mythos and logos throughout history, when she discussed her own beliefs is when my mouth got wide, as I finally heard someone articulate what I was always thinking.
She claimed to call herself a Supreme Monolitheist, someone who believes that much wisdom is to be learned from many different religious texts, that all of them are merely stories that men - inspired by God, or Prophets - put to paper, and that none of these texts - let alone a single Bible - could very well capture all there is to know about God.
There was no one “right” path, even though most religions say there’s is that way; they were simply different paths to the same God, it’s just that He has different names and different cultures and ceremony to learn about Him. And God would not reject his children who made an honest attempt to know Him, whether he book was The Torah, the New Testament or the Koran.
Nutshell: All the same dude! And all valid ways to learn to know Him!
Needless to say, this view did not go over very well at LBMB. I beliieve one poster said such thoughts were “of Satan” (Please, no jokes…)
Anyway, I beg of you… Am I truly alone in my feelings? Is there some kind of faith which would encompass what I believe to be true with all of my heart?
Or am I forever going to not find anyone who is like-minded in what I believe, and my spiritual studying will be reading those texts - learning - in solitude, unable to celebrate my faith and love for God in a church that would have me?
I appreciate any responses to my question, as it is a matter of great importance to me. I apologize for the length of this post - oddly enough, I edited it quite extensively to get it to even this probably unmanagable length.
Yer pal,
Satan