Gee, and you guys almost had gobear cornered into saying “no true gay man would ever have unprotected sex in a bathhouse!” [Following which, the boards would crash because the hamsters would be ROFLing instead of running their wheels! ;)]
In all seriousness, I am willing to explore the hypothesis that what I have perceived as the presence of God in my life is something other than that. I have a very difficult time explaining why I discount that hypothesis – it’s clear to me, but (from past experience) something quite difficult to put into words that convey my meaning to others accurately.
It would be this – in acting to follow Him, I encountered situations that changed me, my inner values and what gratified and fulfilled me as an individual, profoundly – and many of these events came as an unexpected consequence of steps that I took to do His will as I understood it, and which I would not have undertaken had I known the consequences prior to that transformation of self, because they would not have been desirable consequences to the me-that-was. This conforms strictly to the phenomena discussed in Romans, particularly chapters 7, 8 and 12.
In illustration, when a teenage neighbor boy was thrown out of his house on truly vile accusations, my first response was, “He’s going to need friends – tell him to come see us.” In consequence he, and shortly thereafter his cousin, moved in with us, first as tenants and then functionally as sons. And it was a direct result of the cousin’s moving in that the young man whose love released the repressed emotional side of me came to meet us and move in as well; the latter was his best friend. (FWIW, the cousin was also the young man whose providential visit saved me from dying of my heart attack.) Prior to knowing God, I would never have done what I did that led to this sequence of events, and it was a sense of His will being expressed that led me to say what I said in the first place.
I am far happier being who I am than I ever was prior to that sequence of events – and I know Whom to attribute it to.
An inner self-delusion, trickster, or other phenomenon would presumably not have seen the long-term beneficial consequences resulting from a person whom I had not even met as yet coming into my life and, thanks to his unique gifts, causing the transforming of my psyche while I counseled and helped to heal his emotional wounds – something I would not have been able to do without what he drew out of me.
I am forced to the conclusion that the Phenomenon that caused my conversion experience was precognizant and motivated for my long-term psychological benefit – and He gave me to understand that He was the Triune God of Christianity. To assume that to be a falsehood leads us into paths of tortured that I find quite a bit more improbable than the idea that somebody once changed water to wine – after all, a grapevine does that on a daily basis, more or less!
But, getting back to the overall picture – let me say that many Christians seem to buy into the legalistic paradigm that seems to be a human wont – though even the O.T. warns against it, as Zev or Chaim would be quick to attest – and in consequence ignore Jesus’s call to act on the basis of grace and not of law. The consequences are pretty clearly spelled out in thread after thread here.