Post your heartache moments

Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share
1

Let’s rid ourselves of the demons, the stupid thoughts that buzz through our minds at 4:30am… It’s time to say enough is enough and forget past regrets… See that? It was a moment that happened years ago flying out of the window never to be thought of again. Of course we all learn from our mistakes but the lesson is important right, not the lecturer?

Mine is finding the most beautiful young woman when I was in college who adored me and then throwing it all away because I wanted to stay out, have fun and get drunk. Over time I alienated her and I was so concentrated on my own freedom I let the whole thing descend into hatred. Looking back now I know I lost someone really special.

Mistake 2: Taking a really long time to get engaged and married to my wife, then taking ages to have a child. By the time we did it we hated each other and divorced when he was only 9 months old. I have hardly seen either of them for over two years.

The biggest two regrets of my life, here they are, so long! Tomorrow will be better without them. Anyone else care to comment or share?

2

My son’s mother left me (quite justly, incidentally) on Valentine’s Day, many years back. The breakup was almost entirely my fault. I only say almost entirely because, as a matter of principle, I tend to think that most breakups are mutual affairs, but in fact I can’t think of a reason not to blame myself.

My son died about a year and a half later.

My mother died in October 2006.

Those aren’t in order, by the way. Number 2’s the worst, followed by 3, then 1.