Part of what makes addiction so difficult to understand is the nature of “choice.”
You’re right, of course: addicts choose to use, and that choice perpetuates the addiction and ruins lives.
But the fundamental error that most people in the "addiction is merely personal weakness’ camp repeatedly make is assuming that an addict’s choices are somehow rational. They seem to believe that there is some sort of pure rationality that drives “healthy” or “smart” decisionmaking. “Ghod, that’s stupid,” they seem to argue, “Just stop doing it!”
There is simply no such thing as rational decisionmaking in humans in the first place. We may be Homo sapiens, but our sapiens is barely sapient at the best of times. We are animals, driven by impulse, biological imperative, intuition, instinct, habit, and a largely inchoate emotional landscape we don’t even recognize as individuals, let along rationally understand. We all do irrational shit all the time, and don’t even understand why. Arguably, we choose to do irrational shit.
Humans are not rational. We kinda have a general consensus of what constitutes rational behavior, based on our aggregate sanity, and it becomes really easy, based on that consensus, to label those who do not meet those arbitrary standards as defective, stupid, or weak. You ever get a ticket for speeding? Fucking idiot. Do something stupid out of love or lust? Dumbass. Freak out at a spider in the shower? Goddamn, you’re dumb.
Addiction creates a new rationality. It fundamentally changes how a person thinks, reacts, and behaves. It creates a new set of biochemical drivers that make healthy decisionmaking exponentially more difficult. Blaming an addict for acting irrationally makes about as much sense as blaming the sky for being really far away. In the face of addiction, the very word “choice” might as well be in another language.
No one chooses to become an addict. We choose to do stupid things that could lead to addiction, certainly. I think using heroin in the first place is fucking dumb as hell. And I’m fine with saying PSH made some fucking dumb as hell choices when he began using. He did. And his use became addiction, and his brain and mind were deeply altered, and no amount of “just don’t use, you dumbass” will change the fact that purely rational decisionmaking, an illusion at the best of times, was completely out the window.
Anyone who says that PSH should have just made better decisions, should have simply *chosen *not to spike, should have just manned up and chosen not to be addicted, well…I’d suggest that person doesn’t have the first fucking clue what addiction is.
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