I stumbled upon this and read it and was like, “holy crap, that is so true.”
But first: In public, I can come across as laid back and even apathetic, but inside I’m pretty wired about being around people … always get the feeling I’m being judged, kind of feel people are looking at me, etc. etc. … typical social nervousness (probably not full blown SAD anymore, though looking back I think I had it).
Anyway, here’s the text from the post:
After I read it, I got to thinking that in fact, when I’ve been in public eating an apple, those are probably the times I have been loosest, my guards were down and so forth. I imagine this extends to others. Now, it doesn’t happen just by eating – but only when I’m eating an apple.
And I got to thinking … why is that? I theorize it is a multitude of factors:
Eating an apple is not a graceful act. As the piece says, you’re just chomping into it. The gracelessness of the consumption of the apple translates into briefly losing the full body/mind pretenses we normally possess. There is no pretense in eating an apple == there is no pretense in our whole persons while eating an apple.
We are so focused on eating the apple that we don’t have time to think about how the rest of us is acting. And since it’s an uncomplicated piece of food, unlike a hamburger or a hot dog, we don’t have to worry about making a mess (ketchup on my shirt, how embarrassing!), or dropping a french fry (what an inconvenience!) or anything like that.
The chomping action of eating an apple seems carnal. Like you’re attacking it. Just as a matter of carnal survival instinct, you can’t have the give-a-fuckedness you normally possess, and the carnality of apple consumption triggers that instinct. I guess we’d be the same way if we were walking down the street eating a raw steak.