All her experiences up until now have made her what she is today. You love her for what she is today. Since you can’t get past this, you aren’t ready for her. The only way, according to your feelings, to get past this would be for you to go out and have sex with other women. Is that really what you want? Because those really are your only two choices, the way you’ve laid it out. Accept her for who she is, or go out and even the score. Which makes more sense?
I think your religion has over-romanticized your views. Your post has “tragedy waiting to happen” written all over it.
Wait – not just because waiting in general is good advice at your age, as others have mentioned – but because you in particular don’t sound ready. At all. You sound hopelessly in love – and blind.
How do you get over it? If you’re so out of touch that you’re wondering if 4 partners is a lot, you don’t have to get over “it”, you have to get over yourself. Wait another five or ten years. You’ll likely have broken up with her, or her with you, and slept with another ten women. You’ll have grown up a bit and likely be in much better shape to judge whether someone is “the one” at that point.
Can you explain, with logic, why having 4 sex parters by the age of 23 makes someone likely to be unfaithful? You obviously believe this is true, according to your OP your GF has given you absolutely no reason to doubt her fidelity except her extremely minimal history of fucking people who are not-you. Yet you don’t believe she has been faithful with you. What reason do you have for that belief?
Perhaps if you say out loud “A woman who has sex voluntarily and isn’t ashamed of her whorishness is inherently untrustworthy” you will realize how fucking stupid that sounds.
You are DEFINITELY not ready to marry this person and EXTREMELY NOT READY to be a father.
I am curious as to what happened with her first marriage. Did they try to work it out? Sticking with something for a while is a good sign for a future marriage. Has she told you all about it?
Four sex partners at 23 is not a lot and does not make her a bad girl. And what she did before she met you shouldn’t matter and should only be your business if she wants it to be. I think by the fact that you’re worrying about this really shows your immaturity and I say this respectfully, not as an insult.
Why would you spend ANY time thinking about her “banging” some other guy when it was in the past? Is she the only girlfriend you’ve ever had? I’m sure you entertained the thought of sex with them, right? You mentioned being Catholic so think about it this way. According to the bible, those “thoughts” make you just as “guilty” as she is. SO, why don’t you just call it even and let it go, for the sake of your relationship.
I totally agree with the others. You’re far too young to be contemplating marriage. You should be planning and working on your education and having fun, not planning a marriage. I, too, wonder about this 23 yr old girl wanting to marry a 20 year old.
I strongly encourage you to listen to AClockWorkMelon’s advice to wait on the proposal. Most of us end up changing a lot between 20 and 25 and you may come to realize you aren’t the same person with the same goals/interests in a few years. You may still be with her then but you may not be. If she has any sense, she would probably prefer to wait too because it would look really sketchy if she ended up divorced twice by her early 20s.
Heh! Poor little OP is jealous because he’s only had relations with Mr. Hand, and the beloved has had the real thing 4 whole times! She does not need a ‘great big’ little kid to raise along with her own ‘little’ little kid.