I am Ruffian. As the name suggests, I love looking the (mild) rebel. I wear all black, preferring a long flowing black skirt with a mock turtleneck, and accessorize with at least a pound of silver jewelry. I wear a black felt hat at least once a week, and my makeup must always include bright red lipstick.
Several of my friends do drugs; one is arrested for dealing. I am extremely anti-drug and anti-alcohol, and never take a hit nor a drink (nor is it offered to me). While I don’t preach, my friends know how I feel about these things and try not to get high around me. My friend who was arrested bakes his 170-IQ brain with LSD and pot, and is never the same. I swear he dropped 30 IQ points, if not more. He winds up working at a Saturn dealership.
I am a virgin. As strongly as I feel about drugs, I feel almost equally strongly about not having sex while a teen. I don’t like the pregnancy risk, and know that I would never marry (nor want to marry) someone from high school. Besides all that, I’m simply not ready, and know it.
Men don’t seem to be attracted to me, anyway. A few flirt, but I’m asked out on one date for all of high school and was never asked to the Prom or Senior Ball (I will go to the latter on a “friend-date”). I counter my disappointment in not being asked by announcing they’re all stupid anyway, and I didn’t really want to go anyway. (Yeah, right)
Despite the dark exterior, I’m a choir girl. Sports are NOT my thing. I sing solos in most concerts, but hate my choir director. I think he’s gay, which isn’t terrible in itself, but I think he’s messing with one of my guy friends in choir. Actually, I think it’s more than just my one guy friend. I will never know for sure. He was a cruel, problemed man who will get forced into retirement the year after I graduate (why not BEFORE, dammit!).
I’m a writer. I edit the school magazine. I’m published for the first time in a national magazine when I’m 16, and am thrilled that my age had nothing to do with its publication (it wasn’t a competition or whatever).
I take the SAT at 16, get a 1200, and don’t bother taking it again. Sure, I would’ve done better as a senior, but why bother? 1200 is the cut-off score for the highest scholarship where I’m applying–no need to try to impress myself. My ACT score was damn impressive in itself when I took my senior year, anyway.
I like my mind. I hate my body. I mean, lots of us don’t like our bodies, but I find mine beyond repulsive. I cannot bear the thought of a man even wanting to touch it. I live in near paranoia that someone will see how gross my body is, and am very careful to cover it up as much as possible.
Yeah. I’m really, really glad I’m not 17 anymore.
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