Asking for a raise or a bonus…rewriting your resume for a possible promotion…sticking up for yourself when others (like your superior, for example) try to (quietly or obviously) take credit for your work…
These are all situations which I find about as comfortable as bamboo wedges being slowly tapped under my fingernails.
I just updated my resume and applied for a sudden and unexpected promotion opportunity. Last week it was quasi-mutinous meetings with other worker bees as we plotted how we could succeed in asking for (and receiving) compensation for the “above and beyond” effort that seems to be perpetually expected yet immediately forgotten once it occurs. Regardless, for weeks I’ve been literally squirming at just the idea of putting myself under the “look at me!” microscope.
I’d much prefer to just quietly chip away at my work load while grand celebrations of appreciation are plotted by my altruistic and encouraging bosses, but of course cancelled in exchange for a nice, fat check in consideration of my modesty.
Ok fine, that’s quite the pipe dream, but it is probably more likely than me getting over whatever social programming I’m experiencing. Just about anything else is more endurable than blowing my own horn.