I’m not asking for medical advice, most definitely. I have made an appointment for next Tuesday to talk to my doctor about this, but in the meantime I’d love to hear some experiences/advice on dealing with a possible sleep disorder.
I’m pretty sure something funky is going on with my brain as far as sleep. I’ve always passed it off as “I’m just tired/didn’t sleep well last night/depression,” but honestly they always say when something gets to be so much of a problem that it disrupts your work and daily life, it’s not something to brush off.
I do have a history of depression. Moderate/mild depression has been a constant companion of mine since the age of 12. But I am being treated for it, and even on the best of my days I remain exhausted all the time.
When I was a teenager I would skip school or play sick just because I felt so exhausted. I was impossible to wake up and I was late to school on the days I went. My parents just thought I was depressed, but looking back I realize missed those 80 days out of my junior year and 60 days out of my senior year because I just felt so TIRED. I would play sick in the morning and then sleep all day. On days I went to school, I would come home at 3 and sleep until 8, and then go back to bed at 11 or 12. I would try to stay up, go to a club or see friends, but in the back of my mind I always wished I was home napping.
College was better, because I took frequent naps in between classes, and I could schedule all my classes in the afternoon.
But now that I’ve been out of school for a few years and working in the corporate world, I think my problem has returned with a vengeance. I can’t sit at my computer without my head bobbing and feeling the uncontrollable exhaustion. Most days around 10 or 11 and then again around 3 pm I have to just shut my eyes and let myself half sleep for 10 minutes because I can’t physically keep my eyes open.
Lately I have been feeling an odd dizzy sensation, like the wave of the head-bobbing feeling, all the time. It’s like my brain just can’t wake up, EVER. It’s making me miserable.
I don’t want to have sex with my husband at night because I just can’t WAIT to get back to sleep. It’s making him miserable.
I looked up narcolepsy and I almost cried I was so freaked out by how accurate the description seemed. I experience sleep paralysis often (and have since I was a teen). I have never experienced cataplexy, but EDS is right on target.
Hopefully my doctor will schedule a sleep study and I can get this figured out ASAP. But in the meantime I’m here at work, anxious, and I’m feeling sleepy again. My husband laughed a little when I mentioned I was scared I might be narcoleptic, but I think he just doesn’t understand what I’ve been going though. He thinks it’s just the celexa and all I need is a new antidepressant. I hope it is that, because it would fix the problem much quicker!
Has anyone experienced similar symptoms? How do you deal? I’m worried like crazy.