I was sick today. Upset stomach sort of sick. First thing that crossed my mind was, :eek: “Am I pregnant?” That thought led to many others: Can I be a good mother? Are we ready for a baby? The pregnancy test I took was negative, so all these questions left as quickly as they came.
Other things scurrying about in my head:
There has been trouble with my lab’s mail box Among the lost mail is my tuition wavier paperwork. If it doesn’t turn up by the end of this week, I won’t be taking any classes this semester. :mad:
Still mulling over whether to attend my cousin’s wedding My grandmother’s email said, “Please come.”
Pot roast. I got one in the crock pot. It smells really good. Maybe my appetite is coming back?
Why, oh why, are my husband and I incapable of making chicken in the crockpot? Breasts, thighs, bones, no bones, skin, no skin?? It doesn’t matter, it is always terrible.
Did I fail comprehensive exams? I sure hope not.
Other things too, but your post prompted the first one. And the second is way up on my list.
Speaking of being pregnant, my angel fish just spawned today. Its a lot of work raising angelfish fry, and it takes several fish tanks. I am nervous and excited about it all though. Angelfish babies are really cute!
Well my wedding (when (if) it is ever going to happen) is rolling around in my mind. My fiancée said that he wants to be married just not get married. :dubious:
So he is refusing to set a date and I really want to start doing, well, anything to start the planning. I’m starting to get very frustrated, I just don’t understand why he asked if he doesn’t really want to do it. I have told him that a wedding is very important to me. I don’t want anything big or Bridezilla crazy, but I do want a small ceremony and our families to meet. I don’t understand what the problem is. He says that he would get married tomorrow if we eloped, he is just not ready for a wedding. I guess I just don’t see what is wrong with a wedding.
Anyway, that was a bit long winded now wasn’t it?
On the bright side of life this weekend, my co-worker lost her keys for the office. The keys were clearly labelled as to what they opened, even what business they were for. She was sick with worry, we have a lot of expensive equipment laying around. Well a different co-worker was outside on a smoke break and a homeless man walked up to her, asked her if she worked for (insert company name here), she said yes and he handed the keys over to her. Very cool.
So much stuff on my mind right now. My boyfriend of 3 months and I are at a critical juncture. We have been fighting a lot lately, and I may dump or get dumped in the near future, or maybe not. I’m very emotional about it, and it’s hard not to dwell on it. I started crying in the car today when “Goodbye My Lover” came on.
Yes, pictures of baby fishes would cheer me up!
I filed my taxes this weekend, so I’ve been thinking about how great my huge-ass refund’s gonna be. Nothing like some shopping therapy to get your mind off a man!
Paying off my Visa bill, thinking about a summer job, planning piano lessons for next year, doing my assignments, the contest deadline coming up on Friday, getting a new alarm clock, finishing my laundry, filing my papers…
I had a vivid dream last night about suspecting I was pregnant, and all of the stress that goes with that fear. Then I woke up in a near-panic, thinking it was real!
I laid in bed for awhile wondering what I was going to do, and how I was going to tell Mike, and… wait a minute, that was just a dream. It’s been on my mind a lot lately, so it’s no wonder it’s popping up in my sleep now.
I’m recovering from a , let’s call it relationship that I shouldn’t have had. I’m doing well plugging the holes in my mind that this person creeps into sometimes. Today I smelled something that reminded me of her scent. That’s setting me back just a little but just for today.
I’ve been thinking all day about that girl that got ran over by the school bus here in PA. The one who’s in critical condition. I really didn’t pay too much attention to it (although the school is very close to my house) and I just realized that I know the kids mother. Now I feel horrible. To raise your kids so well the way they have and then for something like that to happen makes me feel a little unsettled.
I worked today with someone that I never really had yet and it was fun to get to know him, listen to his story. I always like that sort of thing.
When I’m awake, I don’t worry about getting pregnant any more. I had my uterus, ovaries, and fallopian tubes out a few years ago. I still have nightmares about being pregnant though…I got pregnant three times in two years, once on the Pill, once using foam and condoms, and once with an IUD. Finally had a tubal ligation.
I really should be at my sewing machine, working on my quilt some more. I need to do a lot more pressing on it, and then some more piecing, which leads to more pressing and/or ripping seams.
My daughter has a cold. I need to buy a chicken and roast it and make soup from the bones. That’s the kind of chicken soup that she likes best. She came down with this cold yesterday.
I really want another kitten. Kitten fever hits me every now and then. Realistically, though, three cats are enough for this family.
I hate sleet and ice on the street. I was going to go out to meet a friend for lunch on Sunday, and that’s when the cold front hit. We agreed that it was just too dangerous for non-necessary trips, but I wish that we could have gotten together. We’ve agreed that we’ll meet this Sunday. I’ve known this woman since we were in middle school, she’s like a sister to me.
Why is my SiL a repeat of my mother? Why, when we finally got Mom to start behaving like a normalish human being, we had to go and get SiL? Why did a man who claims to hate his mother’s controlfreakness marry a control freak?
How does the Swiss insurance system work? Someone told me that it’s all private but since Spain’s National Insurance program covers me while abroad as well, I don’t need local insurance, is that true? Guess I should ask the National Insurance. Do I or do I not have MS? Am I going to stay here long enough that I should try to find out while here, or not really? Two of my four bosses keep talking casually about “after April” (when my contract ends) as if they have plans for me afterward, but they’re not telling me. Why do people make plans for other people’s lives without asking those people whose lives are being planned? I’d like to be able to make my own plans, sort of.
I need a haircut. Anybody know a good hairdresser in Switzerland? I’ll accept Alsatie and Lorraine by proximity, too!
I just finished chatting with my brother, and he doesn’t think his 17-year relationship is going to last this year, maybe not even this month. It’s very complicated, and I won’t get into it, but it’s an arrangement my brother made 17 years ago that is coming back to bite him in the ass. It’s hard to reassure or comfort someone when you both know that they are 99% responsible for the crappy situation they find themselves in.
That means, among other things, that now that out of four siblings, it’s only me who has had a good, stable relationship without the usual pitfalls. After being single for nearly too long, I turned out to be good at marriage. Who knew? I wish it were this easy for others, but that isn’t the way it’s working out.
Having some trouble getting to sleep right now. It probably has something to do with that late night nap I took earlier. I always tell people that it is a bad idea to nap at night but for some reason I decided to ignore my own advice.
Anyway, here I am awake and now I am worrying about the meeting with my advisor that I have this afternoon. By the end of this week I will know if I am graduating in two or three semesters. It will be nice to have some sort of time frame to work with, finally, but it is still somewhat unnerving.
I am also trying to plan a bachelor party from my friends wedding in February.
I need a second job. Anyone hiring in Pittsburgh?
Hopefully some spider solitaire will help me sleep.
I think click fraud might be a significant problem. I do think that “joe’s” startup has the right idea but do I sign on if there’s a significant chance that its doesn’t go anywhere?
That bartendress was really nice, pretty and seemed to be interested. Well she gave me her phone number so I guess that’s a good indicator. Should I call her? She’s only 22 though so it could never work in the long term.
Its pretty late so I should probably just get to bed and think it over in the morning.
I really hope I’m pregnant. I sure feel like I am.
I’ve been off birth control since Dec. 30th, so it would have been a pretty quick conception. My mom was only ‘trying’ for two weeks before getting pregnant with me, though, so it’s certainly possible.
It’ll be another week+ before I can expect an accurate reading from a home test. I don’t want to have to wait that long!
Also, that chocolate flavored Coffee Mate isn’t very good. I like the toasted almond stuff better.
If I knew, I’d let you know. Leaving the USA sounds like a good idea. Mouse_Spouse’s employer is international. Right now I’d go anywhere except Israel and California. The ground shakes in Cali. The ground ought not fucking move!
Staying home stick today. Damn cold. Wondering what’s going to happen at work: Will Dr. Boss announce his decision?
Very strange commercial on the TV: People dancing with “vacuum” brooms? I hope the cold medicine is responsible for this.
My SiL. The doctor. She’s a doctor, eh! Sometimes you wouldn’t believe it, but she’s one. She graduated from medical school in 2000, got married that same year, they started trying for a baby five years later (after proving that both grandmothers-to-be had very strong hearts and stomachs, since neither got a heart attack or an ulcer from the wait).
So, she stops taking the Pill, they stop using condoms. The night they did this was right before she left for a two-week medical meeting in another town. She started getting real dizzy in the mornings, couldn’t imagine what was wrong, was gaining weight in spite of eating less than usual… took a pregnancy test on the second day and it was positive, but she refused to believe it. Went over to ObGyn after three weeks of feeling like shit in the mornings. The Gyne tells her to pee on the stick, says “congratulations, you’re pregnant”. She still refused to believe it. Gyne says “honey, if this ain’t a positive for pregnancy I’m a man”. They finally got her on the ultrasound table and told her “ok, this here’s a placeeeeenta, this here is an amniotic saaaaac… this itsy bitsy here is a feeeeeetus…”
The hole-in-one is now 15 months old. It happens, I do hope it happens well for you and would like to congratulate you on being less dumb that a doctor I know
I’m from one of the areas the Basque independentists claim and used to live in “bad areas” of Miami (defined so by people who had never set foot in them). So I’ve received that kind of stuff many times. It sucks, but the thing is, Israel is perceived as a very unsafe and often nasty place. Sorry.