Sometimes you hear a song that so perfectly sums up a situation in your life it’s eerie. It’s like the lyrics are coming straight from YOUR heart/mind/soul etc…
Here are mine:
** Lounge Act ** lyrics by Kurt Cobain
Don’t regret a thing
And I’ve got this friend you see
He makes me feel
and I want him more than I could steal
Don’t tell me what I want to hear
Afraid of ever knowing fear
Experience everything you need
I keep fighting jealousy
Until it’s fucking gone
** I Want You to Want Me ** Cheap Trick
I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I’d love you to love me
I’m begging you to beg me
** If She Knew What She Wants ** the Bangles
Some have a style
That they work hard to refine
So they walk a crooked line
But she won’t understand
Why anyone would have to try
To walk a line when they could fly
Dixie Chicks "Once You’ve Loved Somebody"
I should go out tonight
Get on with my life
Break these chains of solitude…
Once you’ve loved somebody
It ain’t that easy to do
Once you’ve loved somebody
Like I loved you…
I can’t get you off of my mind
I’ve tried to tell myself a million times
A little time is all it takes
"A Puro Dolor" Son by Four
Don’t know how many times I said I’m gonna live without you,
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you,
but there’s something, baby you need to know.
That deep inside me, I feel like I’m dying. I have to see you, it’s all that I’m asking.
Quisiera decirte que hoy estoy de maravilla
que no me ha afectado lo de tu partida
pero con un dedo no se tapa el sol.
Dixie Chicks "Without You"
You have to feel the pain
When you lose the love you gave someone
I thought by now the time
Would take away these lonely tears
I hope you’re doing fine all alone
But where do I go from here
Dixie Chicks "You Were Mine"
Sometimes I wake up crying at night
And sometimes I scream out your name
What right does she have to take your heart away
When for so long you were mine
I remember when you were mine
Yes, I realize that I’m pathetic and I don’t deserve to be allowed to live, but that’s how I feel about the guy. I would go with “Me Vale” by Mana but the vast majority of people here don’t speak Spanish and I really don’t want to translate.
While my marriage was in the midst of breaking up there was a country song out–Maybe Not Tonightby Lorrie Morgan and some guy I can’t think of at the moment.
I’m gonna leave you someday soon,
when I can give up this fight,
but maybe not tonight.
The first time I heard it I found myself trying to work while crying my eyes out, and trying to stop crying because I was afraid somebody would come in and see me. The song affected me that way for months.
More recently Phil Vasser put out a country song called *Rose Bouquet:
We sang, we laughed,
they all watched us as
they circled around,
and toasted to forever.
We played to win,
we never gave in,
and we threw it all away,
like your rose bouquet.*
Even more than a year after the divorce was final, that makes me so infinitely sad I can hardly stand it.
And then, just as a general anthem for me as I recede into my late 30s, there’s Sleep’s Dark And Silent Gateby Jackson Browne:
Sometimes I lie awake at night and wonder
where the years have gone.
They’ve all passed under sleep’s dark and silent gate.
*Hand over hand up the lifeline, luckily the knots stay tight
Silhouettes of the two of us climbing, climbing up a rope on fire
Climbing up a rope on fire
Trapped in a room in a fortess, running outta air to breathe
Only seconds to go and we’ll break free, I don’t think that we would reach
Only the two of us can diconnect the bomb
And save ourselves before the oxygen is gone
I’ll call for backup, ou start to scream
It’s not the first time we’ve been in this dream
She ripped the wings right off my back
She whispered deep–keep it on the track
She said you’re no angel, no angel anymore
All the wheels, are coming loose, close-up shot of a burning fuse
The sky is filled, with question marks, will the chains, come apart
These few seconds that I’ve left to go, flames and chaos, down below
And the earth, opens wide, got to climb a rope on fire
Look at the clock, look at the clock,
Make it to the car but now the car won’t start
We try to move the car but there’s no more time,
We’ll have to climb a rope on fire
Only the two of us can disconnect the bomb
Then save ourselves before the oxygen is gone
I’ll call for backup, you start to scream
It’s not the first time I’ve been in this deam*
You build me up, then you knock me down
You play the Fool while I play the clown
We keep time to the beat
Of an old slave drum
You raise my hopes, then you raise the odds
You tell me that I dream too much
Now I’m serving time
In a domestic graveyard
I don’t believe you anymore
I don’t believe you
I don’t believe you anymore
I don’t believe you
And the ending:
Never let it be said
I wasn’t true
I never found a home
Inside of you
Never let it be said
I wasn’t true
I gave you all my time
I gave you all my time
Sarah McLachlan’s Out of the Shadows:
All those memories pain and anger flood back one by one
They must be just around the bend they always come
At night as I lay sleeping they come to me in herds
Their lies remain the dreams the same it’s only fleeting words
No one calls there in the shadows
There’s no end to the dark
There’s no one out there…no one but me
The hours pass so slowly
The life slipping out of me
No way’s the right way is there a way out for me
Although, I think one band name actually sums everything up pretty nicely:
It's not that she walked away
Her world got smaller
All the usual places
The same destinations
Only something's changed.
It's not that she wasn't rewarded
With pomegranate afternoons
And Mingus, Chet Baker and chess
It's not stampede and fortune
Of prim affectations
She's off on a riot
And she knows now
Is greater than the whole
Of the past
Is greater and now she knows
She just wants to be somewhere
She just wants to be.
She just wants to be somewhere
She just wants to be.
It's not that the transparency
Of her earlier incarnations
Now looked back on
Were rich and loaded
With beautiful vulnerability
But now she knows
Now is greater
And she knows that.
It's not like if angels
Could truly look down
Stir up the trappings
A light on the ground
Remind us of what, when, why or who
The how's up to us
Me and you
And now is greater than the whole
Of the past
Is greater and now she knows that.
Now she knows.
*Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I’m not too sure
How I’m supposed to feel
Or what I’m supposed to say
But I’m not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love
Make room for the prey
'Cause I’m coming in
With what I wanna say
But It’s gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but…
I’m not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people
Remember today
I’ve no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love
I love the way you love
But I hate the way I’m supposed to love you back
It’s just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade
And I’m not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people
Remember today
I’ve no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love
Remember today
I’ve no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love
I love the way you love
But I hate the way I’m supposed to love you back
Holes in The Floor of Heaven came out during my mom’s last week alive. I remember hearing it one morning while driving home after spending the night at the hospital with her, listening to her gasping for breath. I cried the rest of the way home. I bought the song, just because it is a bittersweet memory.
I get so nervous - I’m shaking
It’s so I got no pride at all
It gets so bad but I just keep coming back for more
Guess I just get off on that stuff
Thinking about taking some time
Thinking about leaving soon
I got some things I can’t tell anyone
I got some things I just can’t say
They’re the kinda things that no one knows about
Just need somebody to talk to me
I’m thinking about leaving tomorrow
I’m thinking about being on my own
Think I’ve been wasting my time
Thinkin about getting out
In all this time
The bottom line
You don’t know how much I feel
You say you see but I dont agree
Don’t know - don’t know how I feel
Just trying to get myself some gravity
You’re just trying to get me to stay
Sometimes I sit here looking down upon Los Angeles
Sometimes I’m floating away
Thinking about breaking myself
Thinking about getting back home
Think I’ve been waiting way too long
Thinking about getting out
Don’t leave me in all this pain, don’t leave me out in the rain.
Come back and bring back this smile, come and take these tears away.
I need your arms to hold me now, the nights are so unkind.
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me.
Chrous:
Unbreak my heart, say you’ll love me again.
Undo this hurt you caused when you walked out the door and walked out of my
Uncry these tears, I’ve cried so many nights.
Unbreak my heart… My heart.
Take back that sad word goodbye, bring back the joy to my life.
Don’t leave me here with these tears, come and kiss this pain away.
I can’t forget the day we laughed, time is so unkind.
And life is so cruel without you here beside me.
[sup]Slinks off to cry for a while…[/sup]
I am about to leave a country I love and say goodbye to my dearest friends in the world. Some of them I won’t see for years. Some of them I’ll never see again. Souvenir by Pretty & Twisted
Will you wonder
By the fall
Will I wonder
Was I here at all?
In the morning
From now on
Will you notice
How long I’ve been gone?
Can I have a souvenir
So I’ll remember I was here
I don’t want to see you fade
Away…
There ain’t no moral to this story at all
And anything I tell you very well could be a lie
Been away from the livin’,
I don’t need to be forgiven
I’m just waiting for that
Cold black
Sun Cracked
Numb Inside
Soul of mine to come alive…
“We sit and watch the divide widen.
We sit and listen to our hearts crumble.”
Wide-Open Road, by The Triffids:
“I wake up in the morning,
Thinking you’re still by my side.
I reach out to touch you,
Then I realize -
It’s a wide-open road, it’s a wide open road,
And you can now go anywhere,
That you want to go.”
I hate to break up the mood around here, but consider Conway and Tammy’s country-western classic, YOU ARE THE REASON OUR KIDS ARE SO UGLY. That’s way too close to home.
Dixie Chicks "You Were Mine"
“I can give you two good reasons
to show how you love’s not blind
he’s two and she’s four
and you know they adore you
So how can I tell them you’ve changed
your mind?”
My son and daughter were the same age when she told me she had filed for divorce. That still chokes me up every time I think of it. I don’t miss her, but I mourn the promise of a family and a future together that my kids will not have.
When I did miss her, The Beatles “For No One” was a killer.
Heather Nova, "Truth And Bone"
My mouth is full of secrets I’m too afraid to tell
My body’s full of longing for you to know me well
I move through the day in the rhythms that I’ve known
I’ve got this crazy dream of stripping down to truth and bone
Joni Mitchell, "All I Want"
I want to be strong I want to laugh along
I want to belong to the living
Alive, alive, I want to get up and jive
I want to wreck my stockings in some juke box dive
Do you want - do you want - do you want
To dance with me baby
Do you want to take a chance
On maybe finding some sweet romance with me baby
Well, come on