This doesn’t rhyme, but it’s still a good poem. 
I’m confused about why not having a girlfriend means you don’t have to pay rent or commute.
I’m also in the camp of ‘she did you a favour’. If it wasn’t right, for her, it wasn’t right. Period. Better to know now, than later. Always.
Count your blessings. You’re circumspect enough to not be bitter, good for you. You’re out of, what was destined not to be, a good relationship. And she was adult enough to own up, instead of stringing you along, and treating you like shit, until you took the hint and broke up with her.
And congrats on turning 30!
Hey, I feel for you Quasi. I had a somewhat similar situation without the birthday part. My wife and I met about 3 years ago, she was still married but had been separated for some time. She lived 2 hours from me and fell for me hard, came to visit every weekend. After ~2 years of dating last summer she found a job in my area and moved in. I popped the question and we got married. We settled into what I thought was domestic bliss, daily routine, working around the house or taking trips on weekends etc. There were various setbacks and tragedies, a death in the family, a death of a cherished pet, weather-related damage on the house. But we made it through. We had occasional disagreements but not arguments, but no cheating or alcohol or drugs or anything.
Earlier this year she seemed depressed but when I would ask what was wrong she wouldn’t share. She got more and more distant and at the end of June she left out of the blue, moved in with a female friend that she works with. She’s now polite but cold, she just seems to have lost all feelings for me overnight. All her stuff is still in our house.
I guess now in hindsight she had already lost her feelings a long time ago when she first seemed depressed. She said she told me what was wrong, but that I didn’t do anything about it so she got tired of telling me because it wouldn’t do any good. I didn’t really see the signs, I was happy, but she wasn’t. The irony to me is that women are all about communication, but she is the one who blindsided me and didn’t communicate that this was coming on.
Anyway, I wish you luck in your future. The bright side of being alone is good in that you don’t have to answer to anyone, if there is a shirt on the floor or a dirty dish in the sink no one will give you grief over it. Do what you want when you want. It would be great to combine that sort of freedom with a devoted loving mate, but that seems hard to achieve.
Yeah it’s tough. I go back and forth between feeling guilt, and feeling like I did the best I could. We had a rough year too…her brother was erratic, she had some bad allergy attacks, my dad went through complications from surgery, as well as my daily commutes. I worked hard, in hopes of finally leading a more normal life…but it was too little too late. I sometimes feel like losing her is like dealing with a death. The person I knew is gone.
As for the rent, I can live at my parents, and they won’t charge me anything. The commute still exists though, unless I decide to move short term.
Life is continually complicated. All I would like is to have a job and family. I guess these days that is a lot to hope for.