I sort of get why there is so much of this on the board, but it also makes me a little nauseated.
First of all, The Dope is a place where intelligent people hang out. I don’t think it’s unreasonable to suppose most of us are in the 130 IQ range, I wouldn’t call that stretching things at all. A lot of the people on this board were probably high achievers in high school and college, and as such probably felt pretty damn isolated and weird for their interests as kids. Setting aside the whole issue of intelligence, I’m just saying that what I cared about fundamentally was so far removed from what other kids my age cared about it was very difficult to relate to them. I was into morality and reading. Outside at recess I sat on the blacktop and read books and thought about morality, spirituality, integrity… I wanted more than anything to be an intellectual and a good person. People noticed that, and they decided it made me weird.
Fortunately I wasn’t totally socially awkward. I picked up on the fact that my aloofness was alienating people right away, and if there’s one thing I value more than being smart, it’s being part of a community. I actually remember the exact moment it dawned on me how I was coming off, too–6th grade. I stopped ‘‘knowing it all’’ and started listening. And I found out pretty quickly that my peers had some pretty amazing talents and strengths, even the so-called ‘‘low achievers.’’
Because I wasn’t an asshole about it, people accepted me. I didn’t realize to what extent they had accepted me until my senior year, it was a pleasant surprise to find so many people that I barely ever interacted with had a lot of respect for me because I learned not to be that conceited jackass–I’d like to think not only superficially, but that internally I am willing to admit my weaknesses and celebrate others’ success and acknowledge when they do better than me without feeling threatened.
Also, in spite of being academically talented, I was incredibly ignorant. I went to a terrible school. I didn’t know anything about philosophy, history, or politics, until I got to college–verily I say unto you, I entered college without even knowing what capitalism was. Even things I thought I was good at challenged me in college. I went from a very comfortable easy ride in a class of 124 students to feeling pretty average and unimportant in a class of 8,000.
Ok, what I’m trying to say is, you remember how Lisa Simpson was always so disheartened by the anti-intellectualism of her peers? And remember when she met that little girl next door who – gasp! – had the same interest as hers? And then watched in horror as her new friend smeared her all over the floor academically?
That’s pretty much what the Straight Dope is like for me, and it’s probably that way for a lot of folks. We find ourselves simultaneously ecstatic and insecure as hell. It took me a long time to get up the courage to start posting here. I never learned formal debate. I took some philosophy classes but nothing that would serve me in any measure on this board – I ran screaming from symbolic logic, for example. The kind of intelligence I think I possess isn’t really the sort that is showcased on a message board. I naturally gravitate toward MPSIMS and IMHO because it deals with issues like applied morality and life experience, but that stuff is considered ‘‘lowbrow’’ by many posters here.
So it doesn’t really surprise me when people start bragging about their intelligence – we have an atmosphere that is at once relief and insecurity rolled into one. Sometimes I feel like I should somehow justify my existence on this board in the same way. I try not to act on that impulse, because it’s really meaningless and pointless.
College really beat the snob right out of me, to be honest. Many of the students at my university could give me a run for my money. I learned to define myself in other ways, to build on less immediately gratifying strengths (like perseverance, discipline and compassion, for example.) I have always been a very insecure person, even academically. I was always crossing my fingers for that ‘‘A’’ and really truly believing I might not get it, even in high school. I totally believe there are a large percentage of posters on this board who probably are the same way. They are told they’re smart, but they need little evidences to confirm it because they are worried it might explode in their face.
So I understand both sides of the coin. I understand the desire to prop yourself up with academic achievements/intellectual giftedness, because it is a natural instinct to want attention when society values something you have. But I also understand that I don’t know everything… or really very much at all compared to many people who frequent this board… and I am really okay with that.