I’m a staff person in a library, responsible for supervising one student worker. This is my first time being a supervisor. I am the only staff person in my department and work in the same small office as my own direct supervisor, the department librarian.
I’m having trouble with leadership on both ends – I’m not leading my student worker effectively, and I’m not being led well by my supervisor.
My main question is: which end do I work to repair first – do I go bottom up and straighten out my management of my student before dealing with my boss, or do I go top down and work the other way? Doing both at the same time seems overwhelming to me. I should mention here I’m really, really bad at confrontation and it’s really hard for me both to try to discipline someone under me and to ask for better direction from above.
[Here are the details, if you need them: I have a student worker scheduled to work 10 hours a week, but I don’t have 10 hours worth of work for her to do during the week. These hours are set by my supervisor, who insists that we’re super busy and have loads of stuff for the student to do, but that’s patently untrue. My supervisor is delusional, likes everyone to think we’re busy because that means we’re important and the department won’t be eliminated, but we are not busy. I barely can scrape up enough work for me to do during the day, forget finding an extra 10 hours of work for my student. The work we do have for her is a lot of manual labor and is done alone in an isolated room (i.e., boring and unpleasant). My student is always late when she shows up, and often doesn’t show up at all. I’ve spoken to her twice this semester and asked her to email me if she’s going to be late or absent, but she hasn’t been good about doing this. I haven’t pursued it further because, fuck, if I were her and had to sit in a room alone and rip up books for the recycling bins for 2-3 hours a day, I wouldn’t want to come to work either.
At the same time, I want more direction from my supervisor. She didn’t train me when I started the job last year, she leaves me to my own devices to create projects to work on, but I don’t have the authority to implement the projects and changes that I’d like to do, and she doesn’t understand the work I do or the projects or changes I propose. I do a lot of cataloging work, which she knows nothing about but will not admit that. She’s very insecure, both personally and professionally, and if something goes wrong with the catalog or in some other arena she doesn’t understand, she cannot admit to not knowing what to do. It took me awhile to figure this out – after realizing I had to ask how to fix a problem 4-5 times and never getting a straight answer, and running into this situation involving dozens of problems.]
So I feel very lost in my job, and yet have to supervise another person and be an effective manager while I’m out to sea myself.
Have you ever been in a situation like this? How did you fix it, and what advice would you have for me?