Sometimes you just need to whine, before these things build up into true resentment. It doesn’t mean I think any of these things are important, but they are pissing me off.
My ‘friend’ who turns anything I do or say into something negative. Or, if I do actually say anything negative (like I’m really worried about my money situation), I must be overstating things, and it really is not that bad (it is). It’s got to the point where I have to pretend every single thing is absolutely perfect and wonderful, or I get a lecture.
Goddamn scheduling conflicts. This Friday I was organising a theatre night, then someone else in our group announced a party on the same night. I had to reschedule the theatre night. I was looking forward to the party, but now can’t go to that either, as it turns out I have to be at a family party the same night. My daughter’s school is also on strike today, so I couldn’t make my kickboxing and kai chi classes. I realise that none of these people have scheduled things specifically to inconvenience me, which is why this is a whine, not a justifiable complaint.
The way everyone says that my having a child won’t make any difference to most of the women out there, but can I get a girlfriend? Noooo. And there’s nothing else obviously ‘wrong’ with me, in terms of looks or intelligence or social skills. Most women just don’t want a girlfriend with a kid. Why not be honest about it?
Money, the lack of it. I’ve been trying to get a ‘proper job,’ and just can’t find one that fits around childcare (not in this area, anyway). I have a big overdraft and I can’t find any way to reduce it, and it’s not for want of trying. I regularly have to choose between food and electricity, and I really don’t need to lose any more weight. I also cycle immense distances to save train fares - today it will be fifty miles to Central London and back. Then of course I get hungry, and can’t afford any more food. But it’s the only way to get out and not go mad(der).
Myself. Yes, I want to whine about myself. I am far too lazy and absent-minded. And I whine too much.