I just checked my e-mail and read one of the sweetest letters ever from a poster here. It really touched me, and influenced me to write this post.
I really lost it in my Pit thread. What else can I say? I was pissed. I was angry and I generalized. I expected a few people to say fuck you and that it would die. But a lot of people responded, and quite a few took the piss out of me. I became very angry that people thought I was some sort of stupid idiot because I was pissed (and the whole Wally thing, and I had PMS and was sick all week…It was an emotional week for all of us). One person specifically attacked me right away and I hit him right back (which I do not regret AT ALL). But then I became overly sensitive and attacked everyone, which was stupid and immature. Many people tried to offer me advice, which I took as an attack, when it really wasn’t (accept for one person who did attack me). I blew up and then blew up some more. Then I looked back and realized what an idiot I was. So I became embarrassed and decided to stop posting, period. I did recieve that promotion and I will need to cut back on the time I spend here, but my face was red and I foolishly decided to quit cold-turkey. I thought, “it’s just a message board.” But I had today off (I start my new position tomorrow) and I realized that I did want to post here. I didn’t want to quit cold-turkey. In reality, I will be sad if I can’t spend an hour here after work laughing my ass off and relaxing.
I was childish and immature and mistreated people who sincerely attempted to help me out. The recent outpouring of kindness has truly made me realize that I was a fuckhead and I should be begging forgiveness to all the people here whom I admire and care about.
*doing NSYNC dance I am down on my knees…I can’t take it anymore…
I’m sorry, guys. Really truly sorry.
PS Quicksilver is still an asshole and I am not sorry about flaming him
(You didn’t expect me to throw the whole hog in, did ya?)
What you’ve done here is very mature of you. I’m sure I speak for everyone when I say, glad you changed your mind. You’ve done a lot for this board and the people who post here. Welcome back.
While I didn’t take part in the Pit Follies you speak of, I did read them, and many other things you’ve written. I am but a lowly newbie, but I must join in with the others in saying you would be missed if you left.
But, you didn’t, and that makes me happy ← see?
Glad to hear you’re back Sara (Or do you prefer Nacho? Or the whole name? :D). I’ve read your posts, and I enjoy them. You did not appear foolish at all to me. And when someone personally attacks you, you have every right to hit them back, twice as hard.
