I know, I know, we’ve had 101 “I Quit Smoking” threads, most famously (of course) Satan’s. But they weren’t about ME quitting smoking, so I’ve started another.
And I wouldn’t have even bothered, except that it is going so well and I feel so good! I want to share these things with those who are still in bondage and perhaps offer some hope.
After spending years bitching at my mother that she was going to kill herself and blacken her lungs, I started smoking right after my 16th birthday, in June 1974. I was INSTANTLY a pack-a-day, having smoked an entire pack the first night I started to smoke. Since then, I have been mostly an-almost-2-sometimes-more packs a day smoker, and have only attempted to quit twice before, the first time succumbing in about 8 weeks, the second time, 2 years ago, succumbing within days.
So that’s more than a quarter century of smoking day in, day out, all day long, from the moment I woke until the moment I slept, hardly able to go the length of a movie without itching to have a cigarette.
Well, here I am, only 18 days in, and I feel fantastic. It has been incredibly easy from Day 1, and gotten even easier with each passing day. I barely even think about them at this point. I get one or two noticable cravings per day, and they pass immediately.
I’m free. I’m truly free and I know it in a way that I absolutely did NOT know it the other times I tried. I am NOT tormented by the desire to smoke, I am not going crazy. I’m happy and I feel really, really good. Better than I have in ages.
A wonderful realization I’ve had is about time. I used to spend so much time smoking and finding ways and times to smoke, and I don’t have to do that anymore, and it’s wonderful. I don’t have to rush from the restaurant, hustle it out of the movie theatre, get away from the party. I can participate fully in everything without having this THING draggin at me, pulling at me. Hell, I’d even get antsy making love sometimes, trying to get away to have a smoke.
If there are smokers among the dopers who really want to quit but feel they can’t or don’t know how, I’ll share some more of how and why its gone so easily for what seemed to be a “confirmed smoker” like me.
But in any case… I feel wonderful.