I have started this thread in the pit not because I am angry with you, but because I want to able to use swear words and the topic pretty much doesn’t fall within any of the neat categories on this board.
I’ve read your “my parents found out” thread, and I’ve pretty much decided that as a newcomer to this board, I should probably let the people who have been here much longer and who know you so much better than I do comment.
I am - however - the parent of a “cutter”; I actually sneak into my daughter’s room every night because I am so scared that one day the superficial, scar leaving cutting which she does will be replaced by bleeding to death type cutting.
I don’t know your life Welky - I read your OP and what struck me was your comment that you half wanted your mum to take control and put you somewhere where the desire to cut would be “scared” out of you.
My daughter does exactly the same to me - she asks for help, and the minute that I arrange it she becomes unbelievably hostile. I truly don’t understand what it is that she wants of me. I’ve read your posts - I know that you do not doubt your mum’s love for you. I just want to fix this Welfy - I am so tired of being scared that tomorrow morning I’m going to be identifying a body. I really do understand that pretty much whatever I do isn’t going to make a difference, but I would really like to hear your opinion of where we go from here. I guess that what I am asking is “in an ideal world, what is it that you need me to do for you?”
I really value your opinions Welfy, and I have so much respect for you having the courage to post your concerns on this MB - hey, you’re a role model now. Just email me if you need someone to talk to : primary email addy is reprise@hotmail.com. But we also have heaps of phone numbers and stuff - if you email me, I’ll give you the number to reverse charges if you want someone to talk to in the middle of the night…
I’ll close this now, and I hope that the total fuckwits on this board won’t get involved just cos it’s a pit thread. You take care. K? And any time you feel like you don’t wanna take care of yourself anymore, then you call me.
Well that was very nice reprise. It’s not often I see people around here showing genuine concern for each other (probably because most of us have never met … we’re just written words to each other … I digress). Welfy’s cutting thread worried me too, and I figured I had not much useful to offer. It doesn’t often seem like bulletin boards are a great place to make a personal connection, but maybe this is an exception. I wish you the best.
Shit - I thought I had made this absolutely clear. Much as I can be a bitch in the pit - and I can be - I really want to make sure that Welfy is OK. If it takes me paying international phone call charges to ensure that she is OK, then I will pay those charges.
I did say that I feel angry about the situation - I think that Welfy totally understood that I am not blaming her for anything. Yeah - I kind of am angry at Welfy because of the self-destructive stuff she is doing. But she is welcome at our house any hour, any day, any time.
I addressed this thread to you Welfy, I pretty much don’t care what the peace’s and JDT’s of this world have to say. We CAN find a way to get you to Australia, and we certainly will do that if it’s necessary…
I think Tim was just saying that when he saw the thread title, he was shocked (as I was) thinking “who could be mad at Welfy?” , then relieved to see that no one was.
Especially after you have heard her sing “I’m a little Welfy, short and stout, here is my handle…”. I made that my windows start up sound. It is just too cool.
Ah, the things I find when searching for my username (I’m really vain, remember?)…
reprise, don’t be scared. My mom doesn’t worry about me much so why should you?
I’m not really sure what you’re asking, and I don’t know how much I’m willing to answer since I’ve sort of drawn myself up into my own little world and haven’t been extremely talkative lately.
I guess I’m just confused, scared of my lack of mental control, and anxious for that appointment with the specialist in January.
Reprise, thank you for showing your side of the whole issue. Thank God my daughters aren’t self-destructive like their ol’ dad.
{{{{{Reprise and Daughter}}}}} Welfy,I look forward to you seeing your specialist. There is a hell of a large number of people here who care about you, worry that you might hurt yourself bad, and know that all we have to try to stop you is words typed into a computer. And virtual hugs.
Sweety, sweety…don’t be afraid of any diagnosis. Its not who you are. You are you, Welfy-ish and wonderful and nothing any one says can take that away from you.
Talk to us, we’ll take care of you. (Or your parents, or your friends, a lot of people love you.)
Welfy, don’t be scared, like everyone else has said or meant, we all really love you and care about you. Take care of yourself or help other take care of you, we can’t have anything happen to my big sister now could we? Not when I love her a whole bunch.
I also fear the other personality which is slowly overtaking me like a tumor…how can I get away from THAT? Will this specialist drug me up so bad that I won’t be able to think? Period?
(I wish the mods would move this thread, it just doesn’t seem very pit-like)
The drugs these days aren’t like that. That’s more like what people my age got when we were your age. The new stuff really works.
You don’t seem to be showing any symptoms of schizophrenia or anything “bad” like that. You are coherent and not delusional. You sound pretty much depressed to me. The feeling of another personality taking over is something I felt before I got fixed up. He’s still there, an alternative me whom I don’t like at all, but I am able to keep him at bay.
The illness causes you to not think clearly, and they have drugs that WORK for that, now. If one doesn’t work there are even alternatives that will, so you have the luxury of choices. You don’t end up dopey; I am thinking clearer than I have in years. Decades. I just don’t get as many of those wierd ideas as I used to. But “I” haven’t been taken away. “I” am the same person, just able to function better. It’s really wonderful!
No, there is a considerable difference between the writings of a schizophrenic and what you write. And they don’t know they need to control themselves. That’s cuz they’re nuts. You aren’t. You are totally treatable. As an outpatient, too; as we told you before, they don’t lock up hardly NOBODY no more!
The thing about diagnoses is, waiting for one is infinitely worse that actually getting it. 'Cause once you get it, you can start doing something about it.
Be well, Welf. I wish I could offer some Yoda-like words of wisdom, but all I can say is I have faith in you.
I think your voice would be perfect to do a sultry version of “Happy Birthday” along the lines of Marilyn Monroe singing to JFK. Only your voice has so much more soul in it. So that, or porn is always good
Just email me if you need someone to talk to : primary email addy is reprise@hotmail.com. But we also have heaps of phone numbers and stuff - if you email me, I’ll give you the number to reverse charges if you want someone to talk to in the middle of the night…
