FriendofGod, you seem to me to be a person of very strong faith. You have your religious ideals and notions, and you strive to follow them as best you know how.
I am a lapse roman catholic, now atheist. I do not discount the possibility of God’s existence, nor the concept that my current lifestyle may be angering or saddening that god incredibly. I have recently been thinking about going back to church, not to worship or assuage guilt or anything; mainly for two reasons:
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I firmly believe that there should be some spiritual aspect to my life. Not necessarily religious, but definitely a turning myself to a different plane of existence. Mass is the way I am most familiar with, having had gone there for 18 years every sunday.
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Raffle ticket theory. I often convince myself to buy raffle tickets by saying “Your odds are low if you buy a ticket, but you’re certainly not going to win if you don’t.”
If God is truely speaking to you, as you believe, and if God has told you that you are on this board to open its members to His good news, then you can help me. I have been giving serious thought lately to a plan of action. I am unemployed right now, a recent college dropout, not working mainly because I have no idea what the hell I should be doing with my life. Something came to me the other night, as I lay distressingly awake in my bed as I so often do night after sleepless night. It would give me a very serious spiritual plan of action for the future.
But I am not doing it right this very second for a number of reasons. One of which is fear. One of which is because I am not sure if it’s worth it to change my life for a belief which ultimately turns hollow. One of which is a desire to do other things of which I have been hoping, namely directing and filmmaking.
No, it is not about the joining the priesthood.
If this is the right choice for me and God wants me to do it, and if he speaks to people as you believe He does, through small miracles and other daily wonders, then here is an ample opportunity for Him and myself. You want to know what would convince someone of God’s existence and love. In fact, that is why you are here on this board, and the very reason that you started this thread, because you would like to be God’s instrument in demonstrating his truth to others.
So tell me what I should do about this. Please don’t tell me simply yes or no. In order for me to be convinced I am going to need to make a leap of faith, and lack of any detail is not going to help me across that precipice. Listen to the voice that is your God and pay attention to what he says. and then please tell me.
If you are off base, I will not post here saying how far off you were. I will not ridicule you or subject anything you earnestly told me to public humiliation. I won’t list a point-by-point breakdown of exactly where you broke down. If you’d like, you may even respond to me privately, through my email address. If you choose to do so, I will not post any of that message.
And if you convince me, you will have done a wondrous deed indeed. You will have done the good work of god, in my eyes as well as yours, and especially in His.