What Love You Used to Feel

Miscellaneous and Personal Stuff I Must Share
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I just read through the Songs That Make You Cry thread in CS.

A lot of the tunes mentioned, even if they didn’t rise to the level of tears for me, were songs I remembered hearing at various points in my life, shared with SO’s of the time, or associated with breakups of the time. And it got me thinking how, at the time, those relationships seemed so … critical, so powerful.

And not to dismiss them - they mostly were.

But as I type, I have a lovely wife snoozing late on a Saturday morning, and a happy, inquisitive, beautiful son doing the same… and I think to myself how lucky I am that each of those former breakups came my way, and what good fortune it was that each of those relationships didn’t pan out – though at the time, I would have not called it good at all.

So this is the essense of a mundane observation, I suppose, because everyone lives this truth, even if it isn’t clear all the time… what may seem terrible at the time has every potential of turning out to be something you’re grateful for down the road.

I’m not much for deep and flowerly writing, so I doubt I’ve captured this feeling perfectly, but there it is.

  • Rick
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Yep. There were times before I met my husband where I’d go through a breakup or a patch of loneliness and I genuinely thought I was going to die. Just die. Like some character out of some badly written novel, I was going to fade away.

But if I had, I wouldn’t be around to have this guy be both the light of my life and the most annoying person who ever existed. And that would have been a shame.

A big thank you to everyone I ever dated for not loving me enough or being loved enough to stick around. Woo!

Julie