That’s fucking weird all right. Sometimes you just need a place to put the weird shit.
I’ve had a few experiences where I was talking about my job and didn’t realize how off-putting it was. Someone was complaining about security at the Canadian border and I started talking about how this is one of the biggest human trafficking corridors in the country. I guess not appropriate for a Halloween party.
Which is ironic considering I’m relatively sheltered from the worst of it, but I’m periodically frustrated with our forensic nursing team for not grasping how upsetting their stories are for the rest of us. Sometimes when they send their case histories for the state grant reporting, they are T M fucking I. I end up having to strip out a lot of grotesque detail and not just identifying information (which they shouldn’t include either.)
I’ve learned shit from the forensic nurses that will haunt me for life. Sometimes the most shocking thing is the way it’s not shocking to those involved.
Just an obligatory “Fuck You” to long COVID, which is kicking my ass at a very inconvenient time. I have three competitive state grants due at the the of the month for funds we are already receiving, so I kind of can’t fuck this up or some people are going to get laid off. My boss, who is newish, is throwing all kinds of shit at me and because of this problem I have less time to do it every day.
Right now the way it’s fucking with me is we went to meet with my son’s BCBA today (ABA Director guy.) It was a positive meeting but we covered so much, I’m confused and overwhelmed with the brain fog.
The thing I remember the most (and this is really good and not bad) is that they want to start phasing him out of ABA because he’s doing so well. This is amazing because we thought he might need something like this for a long time. However upon further discussion we agreed it’s best to keep him in ABA next year because the alternative, regular, neurotypical daycare, would be a worse option than additional ABA.
Then he will be in one kind of kindergarten or another. That is yet to be determined with our IEP team.
But he thinks all the boy will really need from ABA after next year is one night a week social skills group.
I told him the teachers think he eventually won’t even need an IEP and just a 504 and the BCBA said, “He totally has 504 energy.” Lol
But we don’t know what to do about the giftedness yet. God it’s so much to keep track of.
My life reminds me of an old Amy Grant song.
This may be a dream come true
This may be poetry in motion
This may be a dream come true but when it all comes down… It’s an awful lot to do.