That really don’t want to comb my hair or do anything, sleep all day, want to eat cheetos and not shower funk? You know, that terrible feeling that brings you down and plays havoc with the rest of your life?
I do for sure. I haven’t worked out for nearly a month now, right before finals was the last time. I worry constantly for my future, as I have an application in at UMKC’s pharmacy school, and have strong suspicions I will not get accepted. Work is going ok I suppose, but the strangest things are sending me into red hazed rages that even at the time seem incomprehensible. It takes hours, if not all day for me to calm down. I might not make it into a pharmacy program and might end up having to settle for something less. I may end up having gone to school to make the same amount I was making before school. And I have all these bills and debts that will make it seem like even less.
I feel icky all the time, now matter how often I shave or shower, I feel stubbly and smelly. My clothes don’t seem to fit right, and I get all these strange aches and pains all over my body on occasion, not related to sore muscles from weightlifting obviously. I have found myself avoiding eye contact with women, and feeling imasculated by every guy that walks by. All my confidence I had but 6 months ago has nearly vanished, and my house of sand seems to be crumbling as some metaphorical tide ebbs and flows. Even my writing and imagery is suffering.
Anybody else have this going on? Is it because it is winter? Is stress causing this or am I just falling into some sort of depression or whatnot? How do I get rid of the funk, and find the Jazz! Or something…
Something similiar happened to me during my first year away at University during winter semester. It was two years.
By the end of semester, I was fine but ended up failing 2 courses, that have now caused me to graduate later than the rest of my class because I’ll be one course short when I should’ve graduated.
For me at least, it was a combination of the cold of winter and an onset of depression caused by stress. For me to get over it, I had to force myself into more social situations against my will, and eventually my mood began to turn. It did take about 8 weeks or so.
It still didn’t help with my marks, but aside from that by the end of semester I was alright.
I have that funk you speak of. I am getting totally apathetic, even about philosophy, and the ironic thing is that I don’t even care about that. Spring, come soon!
I know the funk of which you speak. Yea, verily it doth plague me now.
Seriously, I hate mid-winter. Gray skies, bone cold, wind, rain…blech. I can talk myself up and motivate my brain to make plans for all the fun things I can do or for sprucing up my surroundings. I end up here, though, reading depressing junk and eating Doritos. :smack:
I would feel better if I went to clean out my bookshelf now and rearrange my favorite books.
In sooth, I know not why I am so sad,
It wearies me, you say it wearies you;
But how I caught it, found it, or came by it,
What stuff tis made of, whereof it is born,
I am to learn:
And such a want-wit sadness makes of me,
That I have much ado to know myself.
I’ve got a very internalized funk. I have several big projects I wanna pull together, but just have a constant tension that makes it hard to think of all the details, all the phone calls I have to make, and that just makes me fall into a cycle of “If I can’t do this, how can I do anything?” which just makes me even more tense and unhappy.
I think it might just be winter. Or maybe my haircut. Or maybe I’m just crazy.
If you only feel this way during the winter months, it might be “seasonal affective disorder” aka SAD. Google the term. There are quite a few websites out there describing it. Not fun, but it may be helped by having a bright light on inside during the day. Easy and cheap enough to try. No idea if it really works. Good luck to everyone who’s feeling down.
I’m pulling out of a funk. The beginning of the semester was wearing me down. I hadn’t gotten to the gym, I was overwhelmed with new courses, and the weather was rotten to boot. I’d dog-paddle like mad to keep afloat all day, get home at night and collapse, then barely be able to drag my sorry butt out of bed at the ungodly hour I am compelled to rise at. And this weekend was a total bust, too. I accomplished next to nothing and mostly just watched a lot of crappy TV.
BUT, starting last week, sunrise finally started getting earlier in the morning instead of later. (If you want a long and complicated explantion of why this doesn’t happen at the solstice, I’d be happy to start a thread, and if you don’t believe me go to the US Naval Observatory and see for yourself!). It’s finally twilight when I venture out to dig out the car, rather than the darkest hour before the dawn. My body’s also adjusting to the schedule, and most of that fussy beginning-of-the-semester crap is behind me. fingers crossed
I’m pulling out of a funk. The beginning of the semester was wearing me down. I was overwhelmed with new courses, and the weather was rotten to boot. I haven’t gotten to the gym not because I didn’t want to work out, but because I kept forgetting to pack my gym clothes. I’d dog-paddle like mad to keep afloat all day, get home at night and collapse, then barely be able to drag my sorry butt out of bed at the ungodly hour I am compelled to rise at. And this weekend was a total bust, too. I accomplished next to nothing and mostly just watched a lot of crappy TV.
BUT, starting last week, sunrise finally started getting earlier in the morning instead of later. (If you want a long and complicated explantion of why this doesn’t happen at the solstice, I’d be happy to start a thread, and if you don’t believe me go to the US Naval Observatory and see for yourself!). It’s finally twilight when I venture out to dig out the car, rather than the darkest hour before the dawn. My body’s also adjusting to the schedule, and most of that fussy beginning-of-the-semester crap is behind me. fingers crossed And I finally remembered to bring my gym clothes! I have a date tonight with Mr. Stairmaster.
