A couple weeks ago my boss called me into a meeting with an HR rep to discuss some performance issues, which was a complete surprise to me as he’d given no notice of his unhappiness with my work. After a few extremely stressful days of not knowing if I was going to have a job, we managed to work everything out. I am fixing my problems and my boss is very happy with what he’s seen the past two weeks, but the experience left me shaken and enormously distrusting.
I work in a private bank, where there’s not the usual turnover rate seen in commercial banks…one of the things stressed in my initial job interview was how many people have been with the company for years and years, how common it was in this branch, etc. I’ve been here for over a year already, and I’d planned to continue for a while.
I’ve just started going back to school for my bachelor’s degree in economics/business and I had started the process for tuition reimbursement through work. They’d pay for my degree and in return I’d stay with them for 3 years after my last class. I was fine with that, my boss and the company were fine with that…but the meeting threw all that away, as I know have absolutely no faith that I’ll be able to stay all through school and 3 years following.
I have no money saved up; as I’m trying to pay off my credit card debt…I was counting on that tuition reimbursement. I’ve looked into getting a loan for school, but I’d have to get a co-signer (which I don’t have) and the payments would be too high for me to do in addition to my credit card payments.
I’ve considered changing careers, but banking is all I know right now, and I can’t see myself getting a job with comparable pay ($30,000/year) in this area with this job market.
I’m flirting with the idea of emailing my HR rep and asking her to keep her eyes open to opportunities for me in other areas of the bank…I don’t intend to be a teller forever. I could relocate, although I’d prefer not to, because I don’t see many options in this area (we only have 3 branches nearby). I briefly considered going back to school full-time and just dealing with my debt however I could, while working as a server or host at some restaurant…but I’d never be able to afford my rent and continue to pay off debt.
I’m at a loss, really. My future with this company doesn’t seem secure anymore, not that it ever truly was. I have no idea what I’m going to do with my degree once I finally get it. It’s getting harder and harder to get through the day in a good mood (which I need to be in to keep my job). I’ve got family problems to deal with and relationship problems as well. This has been a crappy month and I need to turn to outsiders with a fresh viewpoint rather than continue wondering in my own head.
So, what say you?