Worldwide Candle Lighting in Memory of our Children, Dec. 12th, 7 p.m.

I know this is early to start a thread for a memorial event, but I wanted to make sure folks had time to get a candle or two or three and pass on the invitation.

I invite you to join me on Sunday, December 12, at 7 p.m. with other parents around the world for the 8th annual Worldwide Candle Lighting, in memory of our children.

They are not lost, they are not forgotten, they were not perfect, but they are missed and loved and we celebrate their life and cherish the memories, even the naughty ones.

Candle lightings will be held in private homes, local churches, community halls, parks and other public places. This worldwide event is held each year on the second Sunday in December at 7 p.m., your local time for one hour. It will be a 24 hour remembrance as it makes it’s way around the world.

Relevant links:

Information about the worldwide event

Senate Resolution #436, National Children’s Memorial Day

The Compassionate Friends

This year will be our 11th as it was held locally and nationally before it became a world wide event. I have often lit more than one candle, but this year the second candle is for family, rather than a friend.

Whether you are parent, sibling, other family, friend, teacher, co-worker or whatever, please join us. Let your loved one or friend know you remember their child our their sibling. If they are recently bereaved they may not yet be hooked into grief support communities to know about the event. Take them a little candle, share a memory of the child and tell them about this worldwide remembrance event. I have done this before with people and the parents have been pleased to have their child remembered.

The First Candle:
ToddlerSthrnAccent was a blessing from the start. I lost his twin during the pregnancy and felt his life was a gift and answered prayer. He was charming, smart, independent, stubborn, bossy, mischevious, adored his older brother, loved being outside, being barefoot, he was a messy eater, and lived life with all the gusto typical of a happy healthy toddler. His favorite song was by Alabama, “Song of the South”. He would dance so hard in his carseat that his dad had to move the seat forward so as not to get kicked in the back. It wasn’t a kiddie song and we don’t know why, but that’s the way it was. He loved to swing and could back more sand into his pockets than any other kid in the playgroup. He loved Cherrios, macaroni and cheese, strawberries, pizza and M & M’s and a family treat that was at that time called “messy treat” and is now called by his name for himself. The last new word I remember him learning before he became ill was “Amen”. If he was very hungry, he would rush the prayer by interjecting the “Amen” before whoever was giving the blessing on the food was finished, which we found highly amusing and nearly choked ourselves trying not to laugh about, because he’d only do it more if we laughed. He did learn several dozen illness and hospital related words while ill, but “Amen” was the last one before chicken pox and then leukemia came to our house.

The Second Candle:
NephewSthrnAccent was born with a debilitating disease. He suffered much, but he was a happy, chatty little boy. He had been doing well when he was accidently injured and required a surgery from which he would not recover this fall. Since his body didn’t grow normally, he was particularly vocal. He was a tiny little boy, but he talked like someone a year or two older. He loved his older sister who gave of herself, physically and emotionally for his benefit. He loved second grade, yellow, Scooby Doo, and drawing. He was a great tease and not above slugging a rival for his favorite girls affection even though he was only about half the size of other boys his age. He depended on scooting or a wheel chair to get around. He was outspoken with his caregivers, once telling someone who loved him very much but was moving to fast, “You are scaring me, put me down and I will scoot myself into the house.” He often let his glasses slide down his nose, annoying his mother so she would admonish him, “push your glasses up.” He would. When she would look away, he cut his eyes in her direction, give his head a quick tip forward and down they’d go!

This is long already and it’s emotionally hard so I’m going to stop here for now.

Please join our family next Sunday at 7 p.m. Have a favorite treat… by candlelight. We’ll be putting a scoop of homemade vanille ice cream on half a graham cracker, squirt on a little magic shell chocolate that hardens as it hits the ice cream and top with another half graham cracker, squeeze until it’s like a sandwich. Have damp clean face cloth nearby, and enjoy.

Oh Abby, I don’t know what to say.

Except that I just ran and hugged my two boys, who are playing “hop on pop” with daddy.

We will be lighting candles on the 12th, no doubt about it. And a special one for AJ K, my cousin’s son who was lost to SIDS.

This is one of the most heart-wrenching threads I’ve seen here. I will be at work at the time of the candle lighting, but will be thinking of you and others who have lost young children to the horror of illness.

I have a special reason to be thinking of you wonderful folks at that time. Nearly 20 years ago my namesake nephew died of SIDS. Cory Jay was born November 30, 1984. He died 2.5 months later, February 12, 1985. My sister-in-law and brother gave my first name to Cory as his middle name to honor me, as I have no children of my own. It is a sobering thought to realize that, had Cory lived, my nephew, Kelly, probably would not have been born.

Rest in peace, Cory. You will never be forgotten.

She was my age- half a year younger, when I was 14. I only knew her in the context of a sick teenage girl. Met her when she was admitted into the hospital, and saw her once a week for months. She left, having supposedly overcome her anemia.

A month later she was back. Slowly her friends stopped coming in on Sunday mornings to sit with her. Each week I -the boy candystriper- went in and sat with her. Talked about school and her family, she asked about my life and what I did and liked. Who my friends were.

She was gone one Sunday. Just…not there in her room, after months of decline. Gone but never forgotten. Kerri, I will light a candle for you.
You would have been should have been 41 years old.

For all the losses that are out of order in life, because no parent should bury a child. Ever.

Thank you for sharing this with us all,Abby. For letting us know about this date and what it means to anyone who marks such occasions.

Cartooniverse

My brother-in-law’s fiance miscarried her baby in August. I’ll be at work, but I’ll ask my husband to light a candle.

I will be lighting a candle for my friend Dori, who was born HIV positive, and lived for twenty years. She fought bravely through AIDS and cancer, and had the greatest smile.

I remember my first “child” death, as a nurse. He was one of my dialysis patients, a big hearted boy of 17 with a tiny (40 kg) body that gave him unbearable pain on a daily basis. He lived to be 18, which was wonderful because his big dream in life was to play the California Lottery, legally. I kept saying “let me buy you a ticket or two”, but he stubbornly waited until he was the magic age. I remember his birthday, we had a small cake for him and I bought him his favorite Cyndi Lauper album (this was back in the late 80s).

I have never forgotten him. And a candle will be lit for him on such a special day.

I never knew the child I am going to light a candle for. But it is such a recent, horrible happening, that I can not shake it.

My sister’s boyfriend’s sister was 34 weeks pregnant. Everything was going smoothly. She started to vomit, but didn’t think much of it considering the stage of pregnancy she was in. One morning, she vomited blood. She went to the hospital right away and passed out. She was out cold for an entire day. While she was in that mini-coma, the doctors did an ultrasound to see how the baby was doing. It was dead. They tried to induce labor once she woke up, but they couldn’t get it going so they had to do a C-section.

This was less than a week ago. I truly feel for this woman. Once you get that far into your pregnancy, things like this shouldn’t happen. I will definitely be lighting a candle for her lost child.

I am not suppossed to cry at work. I will be lighting a candle for my son who lived to almost 5, and was a wonderful and happy child. he spent almost 1/2 his life in hospitals.
I will have a second candle for my cousins 1st child who died less that 24 hours after being born.

I’m sorry for your loss, SamIAm

Thank you, NotWithoutRage

What heart-touching stories.

We had three miscarriages before our two healthy boys were born. Very painful, but I’m sure nothing near the pain of losing a child.

We’ll be lighting a candle for Ambrose, our son who died at 36 weeks gestation 12 years ago.

Both my living children are facing major health crises at the present time but the pain of that is nothing to the pain of holding your dead child.

Please say a prayer (or rememberance) for the thousands of children who have been blown up/burned to death in Iraq, in our name, using our tax dollars.

Their mothers, if they’re still alive, are mourning too.

EJ’sgirl I’m familiar with Hop on Pop. The thing is, it they keep playing it when they are so big that the furniture suffers when they Hop on Pop. I suggest you indoctrinate them now. “Hop on Pop is a great game, but guess what? You get purple and pink spots and all your underwear will be baggy if you hop on pop after you are 8 years old.” Maybe that way you won’t suffer as many of dads chairs being broken as we have. In our case Pop loves the game too, and so they get to wrestling and invariably the furniture loses and they end up with a guy project, either fixing or shopping for a replacement.

I will help remember AJK, Cory, Kerri, Dori, Ambrose and the other unnamed children in the thread. Thank you each for sharing your grief and honoring the memories.

Having read the O.P. again just now, I find that there are groups not very far from me commemorating the day tonight at 7:00 p.m. I may seek one of them out, or observe it at home by candlelight.

Either way, it is a chance to revisit memories of a kind good person who was lost to all who loved her.

This is a loving and positive thing to do, and it’s been rare for me to associate those words with the memories of this young lady.

Cartooniverse

Quick bump for the west coasters…

Find a match and get ready.

Abby,
I’m so sorry about your little son. I’m glad you have delightful memories of him.

I’m part of Team in Training, a group that raises money for the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society while training to run the San Diego Rock and Roll Marathon on June 5, 2005. I ran a marathon once about a hundred years ago when I was young, but I anticipate that it’s gonna be a lot harder and hurt a lot more this time.

To provide inspiration and help me answer the question that generally pops up around mile 22 - “Why the f&^% am I doing this???,” I’d like to run in honor and memory of a child lost to leukemia. If you feel comfortable with this, I’d love to get your son’s name and possibly a picture to put on my jersey.
Thanks, Jill

Thanks JillGat. we’d be honored. I replied to your email.

Thanks also to everyone who participated in the memorial event and the thread.

Happy day to you all.