So yesterday was my 9 year anniverasy. I have not had a drink in 9 years.
I usually post on the anniversary. This year has been a little rough and I missed it. My Mom recently fell down and went boom. This led to brain surgery. She is fine but it was stressful. There has been a lot of other stuff in the last couple months that has had me totally stressed.
Yesterday I ended up arranging for a lawyer for a close relative of my finacee. He got a DUI. So I talked to him about A.A. and how to get, and stay, sober.
But, even with all the stress I haven’t wanted to drink. It is a bit amazing, really. For years my answer to all of the problems life threw at me was a drink.
Now I deal with the problems and think about the good stuff. I am getting married in May to the most beautiful woman in the world. I have a pretty good job and should have a better one by the end of the year. I have a home and it is filled with aniimals (4 dogs and 4 cats, just adopted the 4th cat) and love. I have all that I need and most of what i want when it comes to material stuff.
I have great relationships with my family. I have friends that aren’t active drunks or druggies.
I wake up in the morning and remember what I did the night before.
I no longer have to hide anything in my life. I no longer hide from my family. I no longer hate my life or myself.
My worst day sober is better than my best day drunk.
And I know enough to help people who are like me.
I am lucky. I made it through alive. I have known many who didn’t. I made it through without going to prison. I know many who didn’t. I didn’t kill or hurt anyone (physically) during my dark days. I know many who did.
So, to celibrate, I am going to take my puppies and my kittens up stairs. We will get into bed with my wonderful lady. We will watch a bit of t.v. and I will read a bit. I will kiss my wonderful girl and thank her for being in my life. And I will fall asleep clean and sober.
Slee