During the past week, I’ve been questioning my religion, as I always do. It had been worse than normal, though, and had been wondering how I was to get out of this rut.
No, this is not a hyper-religious post; hear me out.
Today being Sunday, I had decided not to go to mass due to the fact that I didn’t feel I was in the right state of mind. Naturally, this made me feel worse about my beliefs. (you have to understand that if I am unsure about something, I will dwell on it until I am sure. If something in my life isn’t definate that is controllable, you’ll have an unhappy Teppei in your hands).
To go on, at about 3 today, I had the biggest craving for kielbasa, one of the few items not available at the PX which is 5 minutes away. So, I had to walk a good half hour to get the kielbasa. not more than 3 minutes into the walk, car driving by stops, asks if I need a ride. For some reason, I had no qualms about accepting the ride. Got in the car, first thing driver says is :‘I usually don’t stop, but God told me to stop, and I did.’ Cynical, I smiled politely, and made conversation with her. Got to the store, and got my kielbasa, expecting to walk back; however, lo and behold, she’s still in the parking lot about to drive away. She motions for me to get in the car, and says :“I was about to leave, but God told me to wait a minute, and I did.” Now, for some reason, this time, I believe her. She drives me back to my company, says “God bless”, and drives off. By the way, when she says these things about God, she’s looking straight in my eyes, as if she truly believes it.
Now, maybe she was just some religious freak who says ‘God’ with every sentence. Maybe she would’ve picked up anybody who happened to be where I was at the time. But, I am of the belief that she was supposed to pick me up. and my religious questions are over.
Regardless of your opinion of this, I am more content with myself because of it, making today a good day.