About my mom

This is going to be long, probably a little too heartfelt, rambling, and may cause tears, so you have been warned in advance.

Let me tell you something about my mom.

When I was younger, I used to sing her “You light up my lights/ You give me clothes/ to carry home to the tune of Barry Manilow’s “You Light Up my Life”

She gave up college to take care of me when she was fresh out of high school and my dad was busy flunking out of college.

She put up with years of physical and mental domestic abuse to try and make it work, because that is what her parents taught her to do. This included him cycling through jobs and affairs for about 13 years.

She had the courage to take four kids, ages 12-2, and leave my dad, even though she didn’t make a lot more than minimum wage, because she finally had enough.

She raised 4 kids while working full time, trying to go to college, battling back from a terrible divorce and a more terrible divorce lawyer, battling back from a bankruptcy caused by my dad sticking her with many of the bills, and generally barely having enough money to survive.

After working her butt off for us, and having no social life for years and years, she finally meets someone from a few counties over who sweeps her off of her feet, and she falls for hard. He promises her the world, and the day he is supposed to meet the kids, he no shows. And doesn’t answer the phone when she calls, and she doesn’t hear from him for days. He calls her back a few days later and makes some claim about a freak helicopter accident in one of his barns. She tells him to screw himself.

She was a technophobe, but is so pissed off that she puts a post on the yahoo message boards about how men are the scum of the earth (cleaned up for posting here). Some guy in Fresno responds.

Fresno guy and mom begin to talk regularly, and they are kindred souls- both had history and baggage, enjoy the same things, ready to start over in life, etc. He calls her regularly, footing the long distance charges, and talking to her kids whenever they pick up to get to know them. After chatting for months and months, he flies in for a visit, and fits in incredibly well to our sarcastic, loud, crass, and dysfunctional family. Mom’s attitude towards life begins to change. She starts taking control of her life more, doing what she wants to do. A little while later, she flies to Fresno, and brings Fresno guy back with her in a u-haul, along with all of his worldly possessions.

Fresno guy is warned immediately by family that if he screws up, he will never see Fresno again, and immediately understands. He treats her like a queen. He encourages her to go after her dreams, he encourages her to take stands for herself, he gets her flowers on the 18th of every month to celebrate the day they met.

Mom gets her bachelor’s in social work, and shortly thereafter, gets her Master’s degree in the same. Fresno guy works as an addictions counselor, and they plan on eventually opening their own center. About 3 months ago, mom lands a job focused on working with troubled youth, the field she wanted to go into, and is very happy. She and Fresno guy begin re-doing their house like she wants it to be done, and in general, she starts getting what she has worked for in life. Everyone is thrilled for both of them, and they are well loved.

About three weeks ago, mom calls asking if she could stop by. This is fairly unusual, since I live about 40 minutes away, but whatever. She says she went to the doc for her yearly physical, and complained to the doc about some dizziness and balance problems she was having, but wrote off due to work stress, etc. Doc recommended a MRI, which revealed a fairly substantial aneurysm on her basilar artery, right on front of her brain stem. This is what she wanted to stop by and tell me. She is scared, but dealing with it.

The next week is a flurry of visits to the neurosurgeon for testing and determining a course of action. Neurosurgeon informs her that if left to its own devices, the bubble is going to be a real nuisance, causing greater effects as it grows, including strokes due to it pushing other arteries closed, and if it pops, pretty much instant death due to the brain stem tissue damage this would cause. If she was in her seventies, he would most likely do nothing, but since she is in her early fifties, this is going to be addressed. In order to help “fix the glitch” as the Bobs would say, mom gets to have a bypass surgery performed to help take some of the pressure off, followed several days later by platinum thread being fed into the aneurism itself and coiled to support it and help relieve pressure, along with a stent inserted to help support another artery being affected. This is going to start to happen next Tuesday morning. The neurosurgeon has used the word “tricky” quite a bit, which I personally don’t care for, but he said the way they are doing it minimizes the chances for other very bad things to happen, so I can deal with that. He is also apparently a stud of a doc with a great record, and one of the few in the world who do the bypass surgery in this situation.

To put it bluntly, I am scared to death that the last time I see my mom alive will be when they are wheeling her back for surgery. Knowing how scared I am makes me think of how scared she must be, and I hate not being able to help her. I am angry that she has to be scared about her future again, and that she has to battle something else in her life after having finally seemingly made a good place for herself, and finding someone who loves her more than anything. I hate that she will be in the hole for her medical bills, and that she is even worried about those. I hate that I might lose my mom before she gets to seem me graduate, or her youngest daughter get married, or have another mother’s day. I hate that I am thinking I should make sure I have several copies of Warren Zevon’s “Lawyers, Guns, and money” ready, because that is the song she wanted played at her funeral.

She and Fresno guy called a few weeks ago, and sung me happy birthday over the phone, because that is what they do, even if they are coming over later that day. I usually laugh it off, but I teared up twice while they were singing, because that might be the last time my mom sings me happy birthday. It is selfish compared to what she has to go through, but those are the things I will miss.

Anyway, I know a lot of people on here are like me, and are not the praying type, so I won’t ask you to pray. But I will ask you to keep my mom and our family in your thoughts over the next couple of weeks, and especially next Tuesday morning. She is a very special person to a lot of people, and personally, well, personally, she lights up my lights.

Theodore, my mom is 89, and while she is in good health, I never get off the phone with her or leave her presence without worrying that it may be the last time I may ever speak to her. I don’t mean to downplay your situation, just to say that I understand how terrified you are and how much you worry, both for her and for yourself.

I hope with all my heart that your Mom’s surgery goes well and that she has many healthy, happy years ahead. Best wishes.

I will definitely be keeping you and your mother in my thoughts. I hope everything goes well next Tuesday.

Sending good thoughts your way for a safe surgery and swift recovery.

I will gladly do that-thing-I-do-which-is-not-praying for your mom. Has she seen your post? She might like to.

P.S.- and if you go looking for a copy of that Barry Manilow song, try searching Debby Boone. :wink:

I was going to say, “look under Debby Boone” but I don’t think she’s sitting on it.

Your mom sounds like a heck of a person. It also sounds like you got as lucky as possible with the person responsible for her medical care. All you can do is stack the odds and karma in your favor (which has already happened) and hope for the best. Good luck, and don’t be afraid.

Your Mom sounds amazing. And strong. And with a lot to live for. Try to keep a good thought, even though you’re scared.

If it’s okay with you, I think I’ll send some Buddhist prayers your way, light some incense and candles, remember her at temple. A tsunami of prayers.

You and your will be in my thoughts and prayers well past next Tuesday, but especially then.

Good luck!

Sending good warm healing thoughts your way, as soon as I get this stuff out of my eye… <sniff>

Aw, man. There must be an absolute duststorm in this room, to leave me tearing up like this.

Your mom sounds amazing. I’m going to send up a raft of prayers, good wishes, and fervent hopes for the absolute best for your mom and for you.

He is an amazing son…I’m just a normal mom, who got lucky enough to have children who turned out to be wonderful people in spite of my many shortcomings! Thank you all for supporting him…Love…Mom

The last line of your post made me cry.

I’m hoping for your mom.

Sending out a wish of a safe operation and a speedy recovery!

Your mom sounds like a wonderful person, and I’ll be thinking of her (and you) and sending you lots of positive energy

Sending best thoughts and wishes for you, your Mom and the rest of your family. Sounds like she’s one of the “ToughMoms” so she’ll probably be fine. My own ToughMom went into surgery for a torn Aorta 9 years ago with a 15% chance of surviving. She’s still here and has got to meet two new Great-Grandchildren in the meantime.

All best wishes for Theodore Striker and his utterly heroic mother, zenmonger!

Thanks all. On your and Mrs. S’s advice elbows, I sent the link to the post to her and Fresno guy, and lo and behold, she joins the dope. However the intiation for zenmonger will have to wait, she’s got some other stuff going on. I hope she looks around though, her and Fresno guy would fit in very well here.

The encouragement has been helpful today, it has been probably the toughest day I have had so far.

Satchmo, that is just crazy about your mom, and inspiring.

Theo,

from your post it seems to me that exceptional Moms seem to raise exceptional kids - you both fit that assumption.

I wish you, your Mom, Fresno Guy and the rest of your family a long life of togetherness. You all surely have earned it.

Kindest regards to you all. My thoughts will be with your family in the coming trying times. I wish only the very best for everyone concerned.

Hugs.

KB

Good thoughts going out there to the** Striker/Monger** family. Please let us know how everything goes!

Or Patti Smith! If mom is into Zevon, which makes for a very cool mom, she might have been into Patti at one time? Maybe?

Good luck to all, she’s a very lucky woman to have such a great support system. She sounds incredible!

(and if you’re here, Theodore Striker’s mom, you sound like an incredible person! Theodore Striker and the other siblings, and Fresno Guy are very lucky people too. I don’t pray, but send good wishes radiating your way.)

When my mom was 30 she started going to a cardiologist and was found to have Very Serious Heart Disease, despite being young and female. She was warned that she could have a heart attack at any time.

About five years later she winds up having kid number four, despite the risk of all sorts of horrible things, including heart attack and/or death.

In the late 1970s she had a triple bypass when that operation was still considered experimental and with a high problem/fatality rate.

Then in the mid 1980’s she had another triple bypass.

She did have some heart attacks over the years - at least 6

In the 1990’s she had a stroke, but went through rehab and resumed her life.

She finally died last year, at 77, 47 years after being warned she had a Serious Problem and was in Danger of Imminent Death.

After 47 years we still took all the scares seriously, but … well… our perspective had changed. I understand the whole scary Something Is Wrong With Mom and It Might Kill Her thing - I grew up with it all my life. But your mom could still live a long and active life after this.

Tell your mom you love her and no matter what happens she’ll be taken care of. Offer to listen to her fears - and if she doesn’t want to talk about them don’t pry. Be there for her up until the moment they wheel her off the surgery, then be there for Fresno guy and everyone else who needs it (because you’ll need folks there for you, too).

Lots of people walking around right now after “tricky” surgery - thank goodness we can do those surgeries today!

Hang in there. Don’t forget to take care of yourself while worrying about everyone else.