I just went back to the LJ thread and was directed to her journal. She’s feeling emotional and had a bit to drink, but it sounds like she’s okay. Which relieves me greatly.
Yes I’m trying to drink myself to death within safe limits tonight. Potentially my life is ruined as of tonight. Not sure what comes next. Have promised both supernatiral enttities and people who seem to care that I will not go offing myself tonight. Pride is forcing me to keep that promise. Means a lot that some of you care. Makes me sad to realize some of you are probably grouped around laughing and saying “told ya so”.
Now where’s that bottle of wine? I find myself still alarmingly capable of spelling antidisestablishmentarianism…
Wow. I just realized that the journal entry in question got posted to the sdmb community on LJ COMPLETELY by mistake of my drunken fingers. How very, very odd inddeeed. Meant to ost it to my private lJ
Hang in there, OpalCat. We all fuck up now and then, bigtime. No laughing and pointing here, I’ve been there myself. Drinking yourself halfway to death tonight is as useful as anything else you can do. Just try to remember to slug down a lot of water before you crash, it’ll ease the dehydration agonies of the hangover tomorrow.
And also to hang in there. I’ve had some pretty down times. I’ve never been a drinker, so I keep a selection of hard, angry music on hand for such occasions. It does nothing to solve the problems or help me work through them, but they’re good and distracting when they’re played loud enough.
Well, then, how is she supposed to get her date drunk?
Hang in there, Opal. Lots of us are dealing with really crappy issues at the moment, or at some time in the past, so we know how it is (cold comfort, I know). No matter how bad it may seem, it’s only fucked up brain chemistry that makes it so difficult to bear.
Better you be tapping away on the computer than driving around, at least.
Opal, everybody has low times and very rarely does it end up with your life truly being ruined. This is very hard to believe at the particular moment, as we all know. But inevitably, a time in the near future will come when you’ll be embarrassed that you even cared about whatever is going on now.
You’re smart and emotional and you’ve been through plenty of crap before. You got a little boy there who’s gonna need you there in the morning.
My suggestion would be to drink a big glass of water, wash your face, and go lie down next to your little boy and sleep it off. there are plenty of people out here who will be happy to offer support tomorrow.
I wish you the best of luck, and I hope you get through the night–as well as your troubles–okay, OpalCat. And even though I know you didn’t start this thread, I think any exploration of what’s going wrong and why is probably best done when you’re sober (should you decide to share at that point).
It was very kind of you to inquire about another Doper’s well-being, js_africanus. Thanks for that. But since OpalCat answered as best as she could for right now, I think this thread oughta be closed. She can start a new thread later on with more details, if she so pleases.