Well, I will post something that I have been thinking about lately. I don’t really know how to put this, but I have changed a lot in the last couple of months. I have been involved with a couple of women, but what has mainly changed about me is my self-esteem and my overall ability to attract girls. I never wanted to be a player, but now it all seems to simple, the thing with girls, and I can’t believe how easy it has become for me. I used to be a really shy guy, and never had a girl. It was really strange in that way. The first time I kissed a girl was pretty late, and my first girlfriend was when I was 20. That lasted two years and when we broke up, I was really devestated, but I moved to a different town. Since I have been here, all of my friends have had girlfriends, so I have been thinking about sex a lot. I met a girl who had a boyfriend and I went through many many phases of rejection and acceptance. This is what I think changed me. I always knew that she liked me, but each time I saw her I had to start over from zero. This was what really gave me the confidence, I guess. Ever since then I have had this amazing self-confidence with the ladies. I don’t really know why and it is very much unlike my old self.
I never wanted to become a “player,” nor do I think that I am now. I never liked the idea of having that attitude as it is really dislikeable in some ways. What I guess has really changed about me is my self-esteem. Somehow I know that although I may not get the girl I want, there will be others that do like me. This should all be common sense, right, but now I actually believe it. Its such a strange thing for me, but it feels good. When I was a teenager I had very little fun and I was extremely introverted. I was extremely shy and self-conscious around girls, and now I think about all the things that I know now! Its really just too sad that I didn’t know them then.
Its a really amazing thing to know what it is about yourself that makes people of the opposite sex attracted to you, and feeling self-confident enough to actually sense when people are affected by it.
I’ll never be a player, and I know that what makes girls attracted to me is really because I am a nice and funny guy, but somehow this has taken on a whole new dimension for me.
I guess what I am trying to say is that if you don’t have self-confidence with girls, just hang in there because I had absolutely 0 about 6 months ago. It wasn’t easy for me at all, but all of a sudden I suddely have it and I know I’ll never lose it. The more self-confidence you have, the more attractive you are, I guess. I don’t boast or brag or anything like that, but I just know who I am now, and why people like that. That makes me really happy. I