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OK, what about Santa Claus?
Either Santa Claus exists, or he does not. And you can chose to either believe in Santa Claus, nor not believe in Santa Claus.
If Santa Claus exists, and you believe in him, you get presents.
If Santa Claus exists, and you don’t believe in him, you get a lump of coal.
If Santa Claus does not exist and you believe in him, you get nothing.
If Santa Claus does not exist and you don’t believe in him, you get nothing.
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Have you seen energy prices lately? I’ll take the lump of coal.
Seriously, though, as regards the OP: I personally am teetering on the fence between agnostic and atheist - the older I get, the more I realize that I am a non-believer. I’m not waiting for a sign, or hedging my bets - I agree that the whole concept of “hedging one’s bets” seems to represent the height of douchebaggery.
I am sure there is no afterlife, there is no “god” in the traditional sense, and the tenets of organized religion are simply the invented myths of mankind evolved and refined over millennia. My beliefs pose me no benefits, aside from the peace of mind that I am not ruled by superstition and fear, and that I have a balanced and clear-eyed view of the world around me and the people in it.
I know that my worldview is mine alone, and not distorted by the lens of some ancient ideology first codified by men (and only by men) thousands of years ago - an ideology gradually reinterpreted by men (and only men), oftentimes with the ulterior motive of bending human will to their own goals (see the King James Bible, excised biblical apocrypha, etc.).
This worldview informs my morality - namely that we are all humans who make our own messes, and create our own solutions, and that to truly enjoy a meaningful life, we must ensure that our existence pains not those we share the world with, and leaves this earth a better place for those who come after. At the same time understanding that we have no birthright to this tempestuous rock we happen to live on, and that it can (and someday will) expel us, and all of the history and culture and myth and superstition in the world will do nothing to prevent that.
So my purpose is not to worship a god who tells me who to love and who to hate, what is virtuous and what is sinful - my purpose is to do whatever I can to make the world a better place for all who live in it, and to teach my children how to do so, whatever they wind up believing when they grow up. Am I living up to that purpose? No - it’s a struggle, just as the pious struggle to attain a state of “virtue” according to their respective religion. Is my purpose worth striving toward? Absolutely, and without question.