OK, so yesterday I made some crappy moves. I started a thread on Oprah, thinking it would be a funny way to pass the time.
It wasn’t.
I accidentally perceived a witty comment by Ethilrist to be an insult, thus dragging a perfectly fine thread to a halt with my sheer stupidity.
I snapped at Spritle and joyfulgirl in my Elf thread and told them they’d never get any Christmas presents. (I’m sorry…I’ll tell Santa otherwise )
I…just wasn’t myself. I think my blood sugar was low.
I’m sorry. ultress says I’m only happy when people are basking in my sunshine, and that I’m a drama queen. Well, I acknowledge half of that. I am a drama queen, but I don’t want people to think I’m here to have people stroke me all day.
I have fun at the SDMB. And that’s what I originally came here for.
I don’t come here for fighting or conflict. When I post in the Pit it’s almost NEVER about other posters, but about strangers or celebrities who bother me for whatever reason, and I only post them because I’ve received feedback that they’re funny. Not because I think I’m going to make a difference in the world.
I’m a writer. I come here to practice writing and to talk to my friends and learn things that I don’t know. I’m fighting my own ignorance.
And when I post about my personal problems it’s because I know a lot of people here have the same ones and can help. I do get sympathy, sure, but that’s not my main reason for venting (unless it’s expressly written in the title )
Anyway, I’m going to start over. Mild jarbaby. I was accused of being a baby yesterday, and immature…I don’t want people to think that.
I know that I’ll never get everyone on this board to like me (I keep a list of who I KNOW doesn’t ), but that’s one of my issues that I may have to discuss with a sexy german therapist: I WANT everyone to like me. All the time.
Because I don’t like fighting, and I don’t like hurt feelings.
jarbabyj