wow, that was a tense read. I only happened upon it today, but good heavens I sure am thankful that Ryle Dup is doing a little bit better.
thinking back to a time when I felt worthless and sad and just plain unmotivated, I was always more skeptical than comforted by people saying they cared and people saying they wanted to help. Why would they care about me? Why should they want to help me? They don’t know a stitch about me. But reading this thread I finally GET IT. There really ARE good humans out there. People who help just for the sake of helping. This thread has captured quite a few.
Bravo to you, Ryle. Don’t stop fighting! Every day may feel like a challenge right now, but it’ll be worth it. You’ll look back and be proud of your strength.
Ryle - and everyone else in the thread who’s posted about their troubles - I’m glad you’re alive. I know today still feels like everything’s shitty and you’d have preferred to not have woken up at all, but you have to believe me, it can get better. Unfortunately, the struggle to make it better will probably hurt too, but in the end it will be worth it. Fighting depression can be tough medicine, like going through chemotherapy to drive a cancer out of you.
But for today, I’m glad you’re alive. And I want to be able to say the same thing tomorrow. Hopefully, soon, you will be saying the same thing.
but i wanted to say thanks to everyone, especially some of you had wonderful stories. its my second day at high school and i took this anxiety pill (clonopin?) i think and anyways ive met 2 girls and a bunch of other friends.
i hope this happy part lasts, because im starting to feel… bad… again…
first happiness in 4 years, can’t be all that bad?
I’m glad you’re on an up, Ryle. Just know, and be prepared, that it isn’t going to be all sunshine and happiness from now on, and KNOWING that ahead of time, lets you handle the low times, because those don’t last for ever either. Like clouds in front of the sun. The SUN IS ALWAYS THERE, sometimes there’s a bunch of gray covering it for a while.
Hey, Ryle, that’s a good thing. It really is. I’m so glad to see you post. I can hear the collective Doper sighs of relief all over the world. I’ve taken Klonopin for two years now. It will help with the anxiety.
If you feel bad again, you have phone numbers, you have emails, you have instant messenger names - USE THEM, okay? Please.
And while you are feeling up - please, talk to someone - go talk to a school counselor and see about getting some kind of therapy. Don’t wait until you start feeling bad again. Take some action right now. We all know you can do it - we know you’re smart and we know you don’t want to go anywhere. And we’re ALL here for you. When you’re feeling at your worst, remember that.
C’mon Ryle- there is one benefit to the wild swings you have described- that is creativity. Put it in writing- this is the moment for poetry, painting, music- what does it feel like to be you today? Or at least tell us about the girls…
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!;j ;j
Someone’s just made a 54 year old geezer very happy and (I kid you not) shed a tear or two when he saw that user name in the left hand side column. Ryle’s popped in for a quick hello and update!!!
You’ve made my day, young buddy. And then some!
Don’t be a stranger, ok? Please.
Ryle , I cried many bitter tears for both of us Sunday night. I cried for who I was at seventeen, so uncomfortable in the skin that I was in. I cried for you in the obvious pain that you were in.
You cannot believe the relief I felt when I came home today and found that you have posted. YOU have helped me a lot today just by being there and being YOU. Thanks.
Ryle I’ve been following this thread for the passed 2 nights checking it around the clock and it is sooooo incredibly wonderful to see your post, and with such a positive tone. ::huge sigh of relief::
This thread will document this emotional roller coaster ride you’ve been on. While I hate to say that this will likely not be your last such roller coaster, now you have something tangible to refer to to remind you how many people you touch by being here. Bookmark it, come back here when you need it, start a new thread any time and we’ll all be here for you.
When the chemicals in your mind turn against you and give you irrational thoughts, come here so we can help you fight them.
I’m so excited I keep getting that feeling where you scrunch your whole body up as a wave of chills crawls up your spine. Ya know? anyone?
Bloody young people these days…a couple of days ago it was doom and gloom, today it’s girls and partying.
Good on ya Ryle and I’m very pleased to see you back! Yeah, we might be neurotic and doddering old busybodies, but we’re some of the hippest and most intelligent naggers in the whole, wide world.
You are not the only person affected by your death. Your friends, family, and anyone else that knows you will be deeply and forever affected by your departure. Think of the trauma you might cause the only people you love. Do they deserve that? Is your pain so great that those who care about you should suffer? I think not.
I’ve been there. Recently. I know that “I’ve been there, I know how you feel” statements hold little sway. Suicide is a selfish act. You seek only to end your own problems which you feel unable to deal with. Is your discomfort worth ruining the lives of the only people that care about you?
I’ve been on the brink many, many times. The thought that has brought me down to earth and made me realise my selfishness has always been the same. The thought of my father crying. The strongest man I know, the man that made me who I am, the only person I could count on to be my saviour. How could I possibly feel enough pain, to make it a good idea to make him go through hell? That keeps me in check. Your experience may vary.
Your loss wil NOT trigger a change in the way things are done, that is for living people to change. Your loss will however permanently alter the lives of the people you care about, and care about you.
I’m sure I’ll be condemned for my statements here, so be it. If you have a realization about your state, it was worth it. You are worth it.
;j
