FriarTed, my friend, I would never ignore you. In fact, there’s a lot to be said for your last post. I’m afraid I missed church last Sunday, thanks to the Move Which Never Ends and a standard U-Haul foul up, but I will certainly be reading my rector’s sermon on-line. Given recent events in the Episcopal Church, it should be interesting, not that it’s ever dull.
As for you,Vanilla, here’s where I stand.
(See that passage from Matthew I cited earlier.)
You have condemned my brother in spirit and Polycarp’s to eternal torment while allying yourself with those who have shown you cruelty while proclaiming the word of Christ. What you do to the least of my brothers, so you do also to me. I do believe I’ll join him in hell. If you get tired of the company you’ve chosen in heaven, you’re welcome to join us. I’ll even keep a cup of hot chocolate warm for you if Dante’s right about what hell is like, or a glass of lemonade cold if the more conventional version is right.
I have faith, but I have no claim on or right to heaven. I do not presume to know God’s will, only who I am and what I believe. I can’t walk a conventional path, and I don’t want to anymore. I am as God made me. If He chose to save my life when I had nothing left except a desire to die, so be it. He’s a pretty smart fellow, this God Person.
I assume that, knowing everything that is to be, as well as everything that is and was, and knowing what I’m like, including the contrary and awkward bits, He knew full well what my views are and what I’d choose to do with them. Left to myself, 12 years ago, I would have died. God chose otherwise. I don’t know about you, but that tells me something. Among other things, it tells me that my mortal paradigm of harsh judgement can be transcended by God’s mercy and forgiveness, no matter how far down someone has sunk, just as Christ transcended death to show in a most dramatic fashion that we are no longer bound by sin and death for God has forgiven us, Pharisee and Samaritan, Christian and Wiccan, alike. Under the law of judgement, I died. Under the law of mercy, I lived. This is my witness, before Christ and the world.
CJ
