This summer, my Grandpa passed away. He wrote a will which bypassed my family entirely, and gave it all to the other side. This effectively split our relation with that side of the family (whom we had been very, very close to) and caused much division within even our own family. My Grandpa and his wife had been divorced for over two decades because my Grandma (still alive) is mentally unstable and abusive. So this was a tragedy.
Then, I have been sick with some disease for months and months. The doctors can’t figure out what it is, but they have suggested it could be MS. I have been to appointment after appointment (and I’m just not that type), which has been very stressful and bothersome. It has caused my parents much worry, and I feel very guilty.
One of my only teenage friends has recently gotten themselves into much trouble. Among other things, they’re doing drugs, which has obviously ruined our relationship… most likely beyond repair. So right now, I have practically no friends, and certainly no one to talk to.
I’ve just recently graduated high-school, and was working over the summer. However, I am now out of work because it was seasonal. I’ve been looking for a job, but just can’t seem to get one (which has also been bad for self-esteem). So I spend much time at home, alone, out in the boonies… one can imagine.
I don’t want to burden anyone, so I never share my problems with people. While I feel I’m protecting those I love, I also think I’m hurting myself and becoming more miserable than anything. I am a born-again believer in Jesus Christ, and right now He’s the only person keeping me well. But, I could still really use a little encouragement… or even a reprimand. I’ll take anything, but I need some help. It’s been really hard. What should I do?
Thanks for reading.