Do you get what you want in your dreams?
Within the last few weeks I have had the same type of dream a few times… and I have woken up really frustrated and depressed, thinking “Damn, not even in my dreams!”. Here’s a bit of history so you’ll know what I mean:
About 12 years ago I was in a very complicated relationship. She was my first real girlfriend and also the first person I had sex with. The problem was: she was only experimenting with me (I am female) and kept me around while still going out (and sleeping with) her boyfriend. To cut a long story short: the sexual part of the relationship ceased to exist even though she would bait and tease me the whole time. I don’t believe there was any bad intention, but basically she used me to stroke her ego (and whatever else needed stroking). After about 5 years of torment I came to my senses and broke off all contact with her. She is now married (but not to the guy she was with before) and has a child. I have a wonderful girlfriend now (since 5 years) and am quite happy, content and settled down. I have some scars (emotional and physical, since I used to be a cutter in difficult times - my arms look like I have a bar code) but feel OK now.
Even though, I still think of Ex-GF sometimes and I also dream of her. The mean part is: not even in my dreams do I get her. In my dreams she is always married and the situation is basically the way it used to be - she’s leading me on and I feel like an idiot.
Is that weird or not? Why don’t I have a happy affair with her in my dreams, wake up and am in a good mood? I do have dreams where I have sex with people every once in a while, but never with her. It seems that I have internalized that she is off limits, bad news or whatever…
Anyway… Do your dreams come true in your dreams? Do you get what you wish for?