sorry, stupid illogical emotions making this hard to type now…
My 15year old black and white shorthair cat, Blue, passed away peacefully last night, and I just got done burying him near his favorite tree a couple hours ago…
He was the most amazing buddy, he would often jump up on my bed, while I was lying down, and happily sit on my left arm, “pinning” me in place and happily purring up a storm, he’d be near my side nearly constantly, he was closer to a dog, attitude-wise, than a cat.
I was the only one he was truly friendly with, he tolerated Mom, Dad he liked, but he spent most time with me
about a year ago, he started slowing down, breathing hard, and being less active, but he recovered and had been the picture of health until about a month ago, the lethargy came back, the hard breathing, and he started losing weight, a lot, quickly, we tried to get hi to the vet, but as an indoor/outdoor cat, he came and went on his terms
the last couple weeks he really started to languish, he totally refused food, even scrambled egg, milk, and his favorite treat, beef jerky, and I really started to worry, I was ready to take him into the vet on my limited budget and just tough it out, my buddy deserved it
last night I made the decision, he was breathing really hard, he wouldn’t jump on the bed anymore, (GO AWAY< EMOTIONS< TRYING TO TYPE HERE< FRAK OFF!), cost be dammned, I was taking him to the vet today, even if Mom thought it was a waste of money
Last night, I told him i’d be taking him to the vet to see if we could help him, but if he felt it was time to go, i’d understand (GO AWAY EMOTIONS!!!)i’d miss him, but i’d understand…
….he made his decision
He passed quietly in his sleep, behind my bed, in a cozy little cubbyhole, even though I was asleep, he chose to spend his last moments near me…
Farewell, Blue, i’ll never forget you, buddy
:BAWLING:
stupid bloody emotions, go away, I DON’T NEED YOU!