Based on my BMI I have always been overweight or obese. I was fat as a child and never ever came close to the ‘healthy weight’ range. Unfortunately I can not pass on a miracle diet for advice for others … a complete nervous breakdown and the destruction of most of my life and anything I value is not recommended.
I’m finding it rather odd … I’ve always described myself as fat, get the normal denials from friends and have always responded with - well according to my BMI I am overweight/obese. I did use proper dieting/exercise to originally get myself from obese to overweight about 15 years ago. But then my body weight stablised and nothing seemed to change it.
I now weigh less that I did at the age of 10. I’ve just stopped eating … I have no hunger … I can only have a couple of mouthfuls of food before I have to stop … I don’t want to be near food … I can miss entire meals without noticing. Before I was obsessed with food - could eat at any time. I have not had to use an ounce of willpower … I have not done a single piece of exercise (I’ve more likely been unable to leave the house). I actually dread the return of hunger, it drove my life.
I feel terrible constantly … and wish I could go back to my overweight self who had a relationship, a life, self respect and hope. Who ever said ‘nothing tastes as good as thin feels’ … doesn’t feel like I do. (yes, I am receiving professional help and am drugged up on everything they think will help)
I don’t talk to people about my weight and so have no one to tell that for once in my life I am not overweight … hence my sharing of a mundane pointless thing with complete strangers! (and yes, I am well aware that the statistics show that it probably wont last and I will return fatter than ever).