There’s this old friend of mine… I’ll call her Rose. I first met her when I was 20, and she was 16 - she was a friend of my younger brother’s. Instant crush, and I’m not sure I ever really got over it. It’s now 18 years later.
At the time, I didn’t let myself act on it - the age difference was too much. After a few years, when that wouldn’t have mattered anymore, the circumstances were never right… and then she got married at 21, and that was the end of it.
Not long after that, she moved several hundred miles away. We stayed in touch over the years, and I always saw her when she was in town, but contact became less and less frequent… the last time I saw her was six years ago, and lost touch with her after that.
Now, I don’t mean to imply that I’ve been pining for this girl all these years; I’ll go for months at a time without even thinking about her. But when I do, it’s usually accompanied by feelings of regret.
A few months ago my brother told me he’d talked to Rose (he’d not seen or talked to her in at least as long as me), and it turns out she’s divorced. I replied “that’s too bad”, but in my head I was thinking “oh reeeeeaaaallly!” But then, as usual, I shrugged it off and forgot all about it.
Then… last week I joined Facebook, but it wasn’t until today, when I was trying to think of people to look up, that Rose again crossed my mind. Sure enough, she’s on there. And as soon as I brought up her picture, my heart started fluttering, the old feelings reared up… and now I can’t get her out of my mind!
How pathetic am I? :rolleyes:
(Yes, I sent a friend request, but I haven’t heard back yet.)