Great hopping electrons! I think you just summarized all of human literature.
Sure. Here’s to absent friends who kept quiet right up until the day they shot their brains out: Robert, Dixie, Blue and Jerry.
If you are feeling really down on yourself or if you are struggling with mental illness, posting in the Pit is the last thing you want to do. There is no limit on how much of a jerk a Doper can be to those with damaged brain chemistry. Page after page of verbal abuse. But let someone mention that he isn’t photogenic in the wrong forum and BAM! that one is closed.
There are lots and lots of threads that are boring to me just because of the subject matter. I seem 'em and move on. They were meant for other people who have different interests from me.
I would like to have talked with Lobsang and others about body image. Mine was very distorted growing up. Besides, I’ve always liked his posts. They are more personal and open. He seems to be a very honest fellow which is more than I can say for at least one of you who is playing big shot with him.
Giraffe, I think you jumped the gun in closing this particular thread.
Have I ever told you that a giraffe lives just two or three blocks from me? My neighborhood is very multi-cultural.
Echoing this comment. You do post some odd threads at times Lobsang but some are amusing to read and the ones that are more blog worthy don’t bother me, it just seems that recently you’ve gone off on one. In my mind this thread and at least your initial responses aren’t really…you.
I’m hoping whatever is bothering you can be resolved, lashing out like you did here does seem uncharacteristic for you.
I’m touched that some people are worried about me. I appreciate your sympathy.
Firstly - I don’t apologise to Giraffe for pitting your decision to close that thread. One thing I did not do in that thread, which I usually do is say “So post if you feel the same way” which would have made it slightly less bloggy and slightly more thready. I didn’t put that in there because I thought it was implied. Your immediate and not very nice closure pissed me off and made me feel small and like a naughty child. I really didn’t like that.
Having said that. I do apologise for how nasty my pitting was, and how nasty I’ve been in some of my own replies in this thread. I hope you have a thick skin because I genuinely feel bad for how I behaved towards you.
Now for a story.
I’ll keep it short. A few months ago the company I work for said (in more carefully chosen words than those that follow) “We haven’t bothered to assess any of your individual performances. Instead we’re going to ignore actual pay rises and concentrate on the ‘bonus scheme’ which is based on how much money we make. Oh and by the way - here’s a tiny amount of money. This is your bonus”
This hit me hard. I’d been working my ass off, doing some very useful things for the company. Basically I am the person everyone in the enitre company comes to if they have a problem or question. I am the only person with the skills to make all our systems work properly.
I felt like a fucking mug. I felt like the boss was happily asking all these things of me knowing that I’d be the loyal little puppy who will gladly accept nothing in return. I felt like I’d been a fucking idiot for doing all this work beyond my job descripition.
What this seems to have done long term is to make me stop caring so much about anything whatsoever. I have become more reckless and less careing about stuff, particularly my health and my job. I just want to have a ride. This involves eating recklessly and drinking recklesly.
Now, I know that help isn’t going to come from here so don’t think you have any obligation to help me. I’ll appreciate your nice words but you and I know that it is I who needs to help me.
I will get better. I will get out of this valley. I actually decided yesterday to re-join a gym and start to improve my body image once more. Not caring so much about the gut (that won’t go away so just live with it dude) but improve the bits I can improve.
Nzinga Every single meltdown thread I’ve ever seen has been ‘helped along’ by the dopers here. Some of whom are hungry for blood.
I have great respect for the good members here. But I am also hugely disappointed in the way other members behave when someone’s guard is down. Fuckers.
My reaction on seeing his “write your own suicide note” thread. I was too lazy to post it, though.
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Giraffe has the biggest jackboots of all the mods. They’re probably 6 feet tall.
Apparently, he walks tall and carries a big stick…or did I mishear that last bit?
You did. **Giraffe **actually walks tall and tarries a wig brick. We’re all still a bit uncertain as to what that actually means.
No, he marries a fig wick. Get the wax out of your ears…uh, eyes.
Are you sure? It’s not that he buries a Barbara Stanwyck?
Lobsang, have you considered seeing a therapist? Because you really cannot use the SDMB as therapy. I’ve been depressed before-there’s no shame in seeking help. 
Lobsang, I would gladly help your meltdown along if it meant you would stop posting contentless threads about your own self-loathing. Quite frankly, I think I am starting to feel the same way about you as you apparently feel about yourself.
No, you’re a fucking idiot for not going to your boss and telling him to change your job description. Well, that and the whole mistaking-the-SDMB-for-a-blog thing.
If you’re actually “the only person with the skills to make all our systems work properly” then you should be making the case for a promotion, not pissing and moaning on a message board.
