I’m in shock. Absolute shock. Reality has temporarily been suspended. A dreamy, elated, and hyper-energetic state has taken its place.
A guy who I’ve had a crush on for the last, oh, 5 months has sent me an e-mail. He wants to go for coffee. He wants to go for coffee, coffee, coffeeeeee!!! WOO-HOOOOO!!! I waited until I could think rationally to reply to the e-mail without sounding too eager and then, as calmly as possible, wrote out a response.
I’ve been skipping and waltzing around the lab for the last several hours. (No-one’s here, so it’s not like anyone is going to think me a bigger freak than they already do.) It’s almost 6 am. I have lots of things to do. I’ve got a thesis to work on, scientific literature to read, meetings to prepare for. Not to mention that I’ve also got to do a bunch of stuff before Pesach starts.
But I just don’t care. I don’t care. I just can’t focus on any of that stuff at all. I’ve been doing nothing but daydreaming and bouncing off the walls, checking my e-mail every 20 seconds to see if he’s written back yet. (I’d expect that he’s in bed about now, and it’s completely ridiculous to think that he’d be typing up messages in a sleepwalking trance. Actually, part of me hopes that he’s losing sleep himself, since he’s gotten my reply–a calm, rational, “yes, that would be nice, but I’ll be out of town until Monday evening. We could work out a time after that, though”–and is wondering if he’d look desperate if he answered it at 5:30 am.)
I ought to chill out, really. There’s no guarantee that he’s even interested in a date–maybe he just wants a friendly, no-pressure conversation. He’s been out of the country for the past several months, so maybe he’s just looking for someone who also likes to travel to talk to. Besides, I thought he had a girlfriend. (I could, of course, be wrong–I hope I am. AFAIK, nobody I know is really sure whether or not this guy’s attached.) So I shouldn’t be too ecstatic about this. I should take a Tao of Steve approach, I suppose–calm, cool, relaxed.
But I just can’t. I think I’m physically unable to do so. Boing! Boing! Boing! Boing! Boooooooing!!!
He’s smart. He’s beautiful. He’s got a good sense of humor and a wonderfully wicked twinkle in his eye when he thinks something’s funny. And he wants to have coffee with the likes of me.
Yippeeeeeee!!!